Pretty little thing

Everything depended on God but any accomplishment would need my cooperation.

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Things I'm grateful for today January 31 2011

1.Today I'm grateful for Sheila. I eat breakfast and lunch with her everyday and i learn a lot from her every time we talk. You know she always has opinion on things. :)
3. And so today is dedicated to all those people who likes to be mentioned on my blog. Especially Eva. ahaha i didn't know you like it much when i write about you. :p so here you go. Thank you so much Evs for making extra effort to be a little much more nicer to me just so i can mention you here. I am truly grateful for you. I love how we just look at each other and then burst out laughing. You know sometimes(not all the time ha) you can read me like a book. This is also for Chachuchang, I am truly grateful for you chang because every time i look at you everything is a little much more better.  :) Yes the world is a little much more better with you in it. Thank you chang. I dont know if LJ wants to be mentioned in here also but okay let us include her. ehehe. Today i am grateful for LJ because she's so girly. ahhaha She loves teasing me and i dont know why. So i get to smile when im with her.(paganaganahan lang jd q ani nila duha chang2)
4. I am grateful for my new white shoes. Pretty little thing on my feet! I was laughing this morning because i was getting late and i was running with it (my 3 inches white shiny shoes) what  a site to see (see? i love my work that much site na jud dli na sight).
5. I am grateful for the payong boy who escorted me when i walked down the jeepney to our house. Wew i haven't noticed i was smiling all along. You know hes got such huge huge umbrella(the kind of thing you bring for picnics). I feel like a queen(Agora Queen that is).
6. Watched Life as we know it. I'm not really impressed with it. The story is simple and plain. Nothing extraordinary. But its a good thing that Katherine Heigl is such a pleasing sight to look at and Josh Duhamel is a lil bit cute so all in all its not that bad. One thing i noticed though. It is indeed true that foreign movies, especially the western ones has some bad habit. Characters have to make out first before they will truly know each other.
7. I am grateful for Doty. Otingkay thank you for washing my clothes. You are the best!
8. Abba-cakes im sorry sometimes i don't think much of you. Other things takes priority. Thank you for choosing to stay no matter how dirty i am. Thank you.
9. Beautiful music in a cold and rainy night. What can you ask for? God has given us every little thing that makes life beautiful.
10. Ooopss i almost forgot to thank glaiza for all her movie downloads. Thank you glaize. Id like to watch Tangled soon. Thank you for the copy. My brothers enjoyed watching it kanina.

SFC House Hold

 “You do not need to know what the good Lord is doing in you; you are too little.”

-St. Therese of Lisieux

Things Im grateful for today January 29 2011

1. Im grateful that i went to our household. I have been harassed the moment i woke up.. evil and lustful thoughts playing on my mind. I was wondering why am i so harassed like this..then i remembered today we will have our household. It is indeed true that if you are getting closer to God the evil will find a way to snatch you away. This is the battle you have to win. So i have to remind myself what i have learned from my past experiences. I don't know if you all agree with this but this is what i believe in.

Written from my gratitude journal dated Nov. 15 2010 entitled"When you have sinned there are important things you must remember."

      1. That the goal of the devil is not really that you will do something that will caused you to sin. It is just his way to make you think you are separated from God. It is in a way 50:50 so when you have fallen to  sin never feel and think you are separated from God because no one can ever separate you from the love of God through Jesus Christ our Lord.
      2. You are still you! The child of the Living God. It is not God who changed but you. Your way of thingking.
      3. That the Holy Spirit grieves within you when you have sinned.

I have learned to be gentle with myself and be patient with my progress. Now i am trying to trust so much more in God's forgiveness and gentleness than in the heaviness of my sins. To run like a child to his lap every time i fall and i fall a lot. (And in moments like these I wish only to remember the gentleness of God) Yes my God is a gentle God. That is the first thing i know about Him. That no matter how powerful and all seeing He is He can be so little, yes he can be so little just for me. My dear little God(Diosito Mio). This is the side of God i treasure and give thanks always.That the God who created the entire universe stoop down so low just for me.

2. I am grateful i went to mass with my SFC family. The funny and awkward part was, i was sited with  the choir group and was sandwiched  between  two ladies who has powerful vocal chords. I was like okay take it easy sheen...you can do a lip sync.
3. Went to Sis. Nilda's house, with Sis Janet, Joelyn and Michelle and we talked a lot! Most especially about Marriage, boys, boyfriends and sex! wew. I cannot believe how open and honest they are. Now i don't feel insecure and awkward anymore. I always feel like i will burn in hell when im with Sis Janet because shes so holy. Now i know she can be human too. I laugh and laugh while talking to them. Especially with Sis Joelyn. Oh she can be so innocent sometimes!

Shopping/ukay

 ” Let us be grateful to people who make us happy;

they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.

 -Marcel Proust.

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Things I'm grateful for today January 29 2011

1. I woke up and then saw all our pictures in facebook posted by kenny! I am ever grateful for Kenny taking time to post it. And tagging all of us. That takes a lot of hard work and patience.Thank you so much ken.
2.I am ever so grateful to have washed all my undies.. Weeee I'm so proud of myself. Go go go!
3. Went shopping with my sister in Divisoria(night cafe) for shoes to wear on Ate Queenie's wedding. My sister has such big feet it wont fit on anything we try into. Luckily for me all the shoes there are for my feet. Feeling like Cinderella huh? :)
4. After feeling so tired and sleepy from walking back and forth we had ourselves some Chicken Joy, Spaghetti, ham burger and sundae ice cream. Nice. Thank you Lord. :) And then we started talking a lot just about everything. Especially how God has been so kind to us. We felt so blessed! Abba-cakes thank you.
5. By some special magic we stopped and looked inside Footprints. And then my sister saw it. Yes. It was a love at first sight thing. Mission accomplished.

Crazy me

“Learn everything you can, anytime you can, from anyone you can- 

there will always come a time when you will be grateful you did.”

-Sarah Caldwell

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 28 2011

1. I'm grateful for my sister Dorothy. I have the best sister ever! I get the license to wake her up so early in the morning just so she can comb and blow dry my hair. I even go too far by asking her to iron my clothes. :) I love you Doray. Thank you so much for understanding me. I know sometimes i hurt u by saying things i really dont mean. I'm sorry for that. Know that i love you and that (in my life your my ihi - kasi hindi kita matiis.).
2. I'm grateful for my new pair of shoes! It's color white. wow i have too many already.. I haven't even wore the shoes my mom bought for me.
3. I am grateful for our meeting today. Though it was really sad because Donna wont be with us but still im happy for her. Changes are good right?(in God's beautiful time). People do come and go. But they leave something behind. So make the most of your time with your friends and family. Let them know how much they are appreciated and loved by you.
4. Shocks Abba-cakes! This is the 3rd pizza for January! ahahaha i told you there's got to be a third time and this is it! I know you always make surprises like that for me and you always let me know that it is you who caused it to be so. I love you dearly Father. Thank you for loving me so gently. I'm sorry if a lot of times i don't do things that im suppose to do(lazy bones). Just be patient with me okay? Mold me and use me. Be with me. Always.

5. Went crazy with the wig! OMG so this is how it feels to have a smooth and silky hair. You suddenly turn into a lady gaga! I love how it feels to just go and be myself. Today i am free and i love it. Abba-cakes thank you. Chang2 mentioned your name kanina...I know your happy. ehehe oieeeee.
6. Im so grateful for Janice(i so love teasing u) and Chang2(ur the cutest chang!) the two brightens my day.
7. Had an ice cream treat from evava! Thank you Evs! ehehe i love you. weeeeeeee.
8. I am grateful for Kenny being patient with me even though i know shes a lil bit pissed because for the second time i forgot to log out again! Abba please don't allow any third time please? Remind me always...
9. Today i am ever so grateful because i get to force myself to write my daily gratitude stuff. As you can see i dont have an entry for January 26-27. Weee I know what i did on the 27th. I kind of sleep the entire day after arriving from work. And as for what i did on the 26th, i cant remember a thing.
10. Today I am grateful because you are my God and my creator. I celebrate myself and i praise you because i am fearfully and wonderfully made. Thank you Father.

To Kill a Mocking Bird

 A Timeless Classic of Growing Up and the Human Dignity that Unites Us All

A novel set in a small town in fictional Maycomb County, Alabama, 1933-35; written in the 1950s, published in 1960. By Harper Lee.

Mrs. Dubose was a morphine addict" said Atticus."She took it as a pain-killer for years. The doctor put her on it. She'd have spent the rest of her life on it and died without so much agony, but she was too contrary--"

  "Sir?" said Jem.

 Atticus said "Just before your escapade she called me to make her will. Dr. Reynolds told her she had only a few months left.. Her business affairs were in perfect order but she said, There's still one thing out of order."

  "What was that?" Jem was perplexed.

   "She said she was going to leave this world beholding to nothing and nobody". Jem, when you're sick as she was, its alright to take anything to make it easier, but it wasn't alright for her. She said she meant to break herself of it before she died, and that's what she did."

   Jem said, "You mean that's what her fits were?"

   "Yes that's what they were. Most of the time you were reading to her i doubt if she heard a word you said. Her whole mind and body were so concentrated on that alarm clock. If you hadn't fallen into her hands, I'd have made you go read to her anyway. It may have been some distraction. There was another reason--"

   "Did she die free?"asked Jem.

   "As the mountain air," said Atticus. "She was conscious to the last almost. Conscious, he smiled, "and cantankerous. She still disapprove heartily on my doings, and said id probably spend the rest of my life bailing you out of jail. She had Jessie fix you this box--"

   Atticus reached down and picked up the candy box. Inside surrounded by wads of damp cotton, was a white, waxy, perfect camellia. It was a Snow-on-the-Mountain.

  Jem's eyes merely popped out of his head. "Old hell-devil, old hell-devil!" he screamed, flinging it down. "Why cant she leave me alone?"

  In a flash Attius was up and standing over him. Jem buried his face in Atticus's shirt front. "Sh-h" he said. "I think that was her way of telling you- everything's alright now, Jem, everything's all right. You know, she was a great lady."

   "A lady?"Jem raised his head. His face was scarlet.

   "After all those things she said about you, a lady?"

   "She was. She had her own views about things, a lot different from mine, maybe...son, I told you that if you hadn't lost your head id have made you go read to her. I wanted you to see something about her- I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. Its when you know your licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what. You rarely win, but sometimes you do. Mrs. Dubose won, all ninety-eight pounds of her. According to her views, she died beholden to nothing and nobody. She was the bravest person i ever knew." xxx

To Kill a Mocking Bird by Harper Lee is one of my All Time Favorite Book. You know when they'd asked  what book changed your life? I have none(maybe the Bible). But this book would come close as to have made an impact on me. It widen my views on things and made me open my mind to understand people a whole lot better. You know when Atticus said that,"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view-until you climb into his skin and walk around in it." I love every part of this book and it was so difficult to choose which one to post. I choose that one up there because it talks about freedom in a hard and beautiful way. I love Scout and Dill and all their crazy ideas and  i  can relate somehow to everyone in Maycomb county. I highly recommend this book. If you can only read one book in your lifetime this would probably be it for me.

Fave quote: "It's not time to worry yet."

Ratings: 10/10

New hair cut

 I feel a very unusual sensation - if it is not indigestion, 

I think it must be gratitude. 

~Benjamin Disraeli

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Things I'm grateful for today January 25, 2011

1. I'm grateful for my new haircut. ^^ It's so short im still trying to get use to it.
2. I'm grateful for Janice who invited me to go to a parlor shop to have our hair done. It was definitely my first time in a long time to have my hair cut professionally because most of the time i do it on my own.
3.Im so grateful that i was able to watch Ghajini. Lovely characters they have in there especially the character of  Asin Thottumkal as Kalpana. Gonna write a review/reflection for that movie soon.

Flirting in a funny way

He is a wise man who does not grieve for the things which he has not, 

but rejoices for those which he has. 

~Epictetus

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Things I'm grateful for today January 24 2011

1. The conductor of  lapasan jeep flirting with me! waaaaaaaaa. Hes got such crooked tooth it makes me laugh. Me and the driver were laughing. He was teasing he's conductor for being so upfront.He was so funny im not even pissed off(which usually i am when things like that happen)It was just plain funny. In the end i gave him my broadest smile.

2. As I've always said i cant allow myself to post only 1 thing here. So today I'm grateful for life and for my inner being. For the tress and the stars up above. For love and for being grateful for the ordinary things that comes my way. Thank you Lord. ^^

Karenika Replied!

As each day comes to us refreshed and anew, 

so does my gratitude renew itself daily.  

The breaking of the sun over the horizon

is my grateful heart dawning upon a blessed world.  ~

-Terri Guillemets
 

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 23 2011

Pleasant surprise! 

1. I wake up and then i see that! Wow, Karenika just replied to me. I feel so happy and touched. I have been reading her blog. Following every post, arts and photography.I'm so familiar with David and Nathaniel already. I love her constancy it's very inspiring.

 Look at that big smile...when you get to smile like that with roosters then you are a certified SABUNGERO!

2. Koy2 and Abong winning the cockfight! ahahha hala oi mga sabungero man ni ako mga manghod.I dont mind for as long as we get an ice cream or something everytime.

3. I'm so grateful for Monsi and his sermon. Ignorance of the bible is ignorance of Christ - quoting St. Jerome.

Today is a blessed day and it comes along with a lot of lessons to be learned.

Abba-cakes

 "God is up in the heavens above

and if you get to fly a little higher than the earth

youll get to meet him there!"

 -Sheena Marie Senara

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 22 2011

1. And so i named you my Abba-cakes! yay that is just so sweet of me don't you think? Abba-cakes your my sweetest patootie! ahahaha
2. I am so grateful that i decided to go to Dahilayan Adventure Park with my friends/classmates and coworkers to experience Asia's Longest Zipline. Wow, once i get there and started zip-lining i was screaming and shouting so loud! ahahah i was so happy. It feels like flying. So this is what it feels like to fly...ahhh heaven. And then you see your little shadow down there(it's so cute) ah pure happiness! There is God up there. Yes there is God in flying.

 Spinning and spinning and smiling and smiling...

3. I played like a little kid today..And i tried all there is to play with in the park. I especially love those round table where you get to spin and hold yourself so tight so us not to be thrown away. I was smiling all the time we played it! Oh how lucky am i to be smiling like i have no care in the whole wide world. I should wear that smile everyday.
4. Father i am so thankful for your protection. We could have gotten in an accident but you choose to let your Guardian angel cover us with his beautiful wings. Thank you. Thank you. None other like you.
5. So grateful for the perfect weather you give us today. The weather is so fine. And the sun smiling down on us. What a great day to enjoy and have fun. Thank you so much!

Stick to it

Things I'm Grateful for today.

1.I'm grateful for the moon rise. Oh how full and bright it is. Grateful that i get to see the dawn and feel the early morning breeze. Got to appreciate them all now. Graveyard shift is drawing closer.
2.I'm grateful for my afternoon sleep. Nothing beats sleeping especially when your whole body is so tired you don't even have the strength to open your eyelids.
3.Im so grateful for Janice and Chachuchang. Work wouldn't be that easy without them. Thank you so much Lord with all these people i work with.
4.Enjoyed facebook so much today. I think i'm a bit addicted. No, its just a daily routine. (hope so)
5.Mom brought home some Marshmallows and chocolates. yay!
6. Im so grateful that my mom cooked dinner for me. Aw, that doesnt happen always. ehehe I love my mom.
7. Slowly reading "Little Altars Everywhere" 1 Chapter a day is enough.
8. Purpose Driven Life day 2. Thank you so much Lord. Please give me the stick-to-itiveness attitude towards my goals. Thank you soo soo much Abba dear. :)IluvYou.

Practice

Found this at http://kristinrobertson.com/ i have to repost. I think i want to do this also. :)

Every morning, for about five minutes, sit still and contemplate how God beholds you. God is like an unconditionally loving parent or grandparent, who extends to you abundant love, acceptance and forgiveness. There is nothing you need do or say or achieve to deserve this love; there is nothing you can do to lose it. This abiding love has surrounded you since the inception of your soul, when God created you.
Listen to what God has to say to you: “You are our blessed child, in whom we are well pleased. We love you whatever you do - we love you unconditionally - so you can cease your striving and rest in our embrace. We grieve for you when you choose to turn your face away from love, and rejoice when you return to us. Know that we are always here, ready to enfold you in the light of our love.”
This practice, done daily, will change your life, as it has mine. You will look in the mirror and see a different person staring back at you. You will come to love yourself completely, unabashedly and lavishly, as God loves you. What greater gift - the gift of self-love - can you give to yourself and to the world?  For, if you cannot fully love yourself, you haven’t a prayer of fully loving others.

note: Done a little revision. Replaced the word Source to God.It doesn't matter either way. God is our source.

Make You Feel My Love

Make You Feel My Love 

Songwriter: Bob Dylan

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven’t made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I’ve known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I’d go hungry
I’d go black and blue
I’d go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there’s nothing
That I wouldn’t do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain’t seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

This is one of Doty's favorite song. And today i feel like listening. I just love how the accompanying piano talks to you and tugs at your heart. And Adele's voice is so truthful. If a human being can love like this how much more so is God's love for us. 

To do list

It is my desire to lavish my love on you

Simply because you are my child

and i am your Father

-1 John 3:1

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 20 2011

1. Did two of my to do list. Im so grateful and happy even proud.
2. I am grateful that I'm feeling good today. I cleaned the kitchen and washed all the plates and  im happy with myself. I figured, God has been so good to me and here i am so lazy(this got to change). So today change is starting.
3. Done reading the Pupose Driven Life for day 1....39 more days to go. Got to finish it and see what will happen. Im sure ill be learning a lot of things from it.  Thank you Lord. :) (Reflections to follow tomorrow)
4. I'm grateful for music. Listening to Adele now. Abba dear u r madly in love with all of us. Crazy even. Thank you so much.

This is the day the Lord has made...

“My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord;

my spirit rejoices in God my savior."

- Mama Mary,Luke 1:46

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 19 2011

1. I'm grateful how i just laugh and laugh today. Today is a love and accept my self day. And it felt good. I feel beautiful and loved. Forgiven and pure. ah heaven on earth.
2. I'm grateful that I'm sharing the room with Eva, Janice and Glaiza. I can just be me and go crazy all the time. I love who i am when im with them.
3.I love my work. I gave an 80% satisfaction rate after being asked by kenny. I reasoned that i feel unburdened after going through the collecting task. Yes remembering the baskets of labhonon again. If you can imagine it being washed then that's how my  job is now. I was laughing at myself because everyone was answering in technical terms and here i am talking about labhonons. Even Kenny was teasing me. Oh well. That's just me. And i love myself today.
4. I am grateful i couldn't believed i answered a webmaster how i will wait for him next week. waaaa that sounds like ew. I love how i can laugh at myself for making stupid remarks such as this.
5. Had chips delight once again. I love cookies. Im afraid im getting addicted to it.
6. Im grateful that im feeling wonderful today. Thank you Lord.
7.I'm amazed by how much dedication i put myself into for making this post every single day. THank you dear Father.
8. Excited about the t-shirt design update. Thank you again my dear little God.
9.Planning to start the Purpose Driven Life, the An Art a Week and The Book Review. Lots and lots of things to be done. I'm grateful for all of these Abba dear. Thank you.
10. When i think about how your mercy is made new every morning i feel like i can do everything. Thank you Lord. My spirit rejoices in You my Savior. For You have done great things for me. And gentleness and compassion is your name. Thank you so much.

Plumb

Singer/songwriter Tiffany Arbuckle fronted the Dove Award-winning alternative rock band Plumb during the late '90s, and adopted the name Plumb for her subsequent full-fledged solo career. She was born in Indianapolis and grew up in Atlanta, where she took several gigs as a backup singer and wound up touring in that capacity instead of going to college, as she'd planned. 

    

So glad to be reminded of her. The first (cassette) tape record i ever  bought with my very own money. Good old days...high school days... Beautiful Lumps of Coal. This post is for my Diosito Mio...U r my sink and swim.

Sink N Swim

I lost it all
You got it back
Believed in me
When I gave up on myself again

A sudden rain
Revealed your face
I knew right then
No matter where I go I'd
Have your hand to hold

We will sink and
We will swim
'Til the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry
'Til there's no more breath inside
Cause we will sink
We will swim

I was,
A tender reed
Bent in the wind
And then the storm passed
And you helped me stand upright again

So here we are
Nothing to lose

So take my hand
We'll jump right in
The water's warm
Its time to live

We will sink and
We will swim
'Til the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry
'Til there's no more breath inside
Cause we will sink
We will swim

It doesn't rain
For nothing
It will shine
For you

We will sink and
We will swim
Til' the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry
Til' there's no more breath inside
Cause we will sink
We will swim

Check her album out

Escape

 It is vital that people “count their blessings”:
to appreciate what they possess
without having to undergo
its actual loss.
—ABRAHAM MASLOW

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 18 2011

1. I'm grateful for Eva..for the way she makes me laugh. At least she makes my day today no matter how boring.
2.I'm not gonna let my self write only 1 "Things I'm grateful for today" stuff. Got to do better than that. My heart's pretty sad today. I feel disappointed with myself. I wish i could just accept and celebrate myself and like me better. gah gah gah this should not be in here...
take 2. Went to SM and bought some marshmallows and chips delight to forget my disappointment. Run sheena run...this should not be in here either.  
okay take 3. Slept the whole afternoon to forget things. gah fails.
okay here we go:  2. I'm grateful i am alive and that as long as i remain so there is still hope. Sink and swim.

Concerning trees

I cant tell you how much i love trees. But mostly all of my drawings are about them. That is how much. Here's my take on them. 

To the Trees

To the trees, how do you pray?

In silence.

To the sun, how do you praise God?

By shining.

Oh just be, just be.

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I have never seen you so quiet this early morning.

Have you been praying?

Oh, i pray all the time.

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I have never seen anything as beautiful as you,

Tell me what is it? What is your secret?

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There are things that cannot be put to words,

Things that only the eyes and the heart knows the language.

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There is no arrogance in you.

You are as high

As mighty

And as calm.

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Tell me what does the bird sounds to you?

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Don't be so calm you allure me.

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Tell me where do you look

Up or down? 

The sky is lovely 

The earth too.

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I don't mind you holding hands with me.

Intertwined.

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How does it feels to bear fruit?

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Author: Me, tabulyogang.info

The Joy of having your hair combed

 The greatest thing is to give thanks for everything.
He who has learned this knows what it means to live.
He has penetrated the whole mystery of life:
giving thanks for everything.
—ALBERT SCHWEITZER

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 17 2011

1. I'm grateful that i finally get to experience the joy of having my mom combed my hair. I remember telling Doty how i don't remember mom combing my hair ever. You see i grew up with my lola when i was little, and i dont recall mom doing something with my hair. But today she combed my hair and blew dry it upon my request. I'm all smiles. Thank you Lord.
2. Abba dear i know I'm stubborn sometimes. Don't ever make me feel that i need to do something in order to deserve your love. Help me to be patient with my progress. ^^ KNow that i love you so. THank you so much. My heart aches every time you try to get my attention. Thank you for always checking out on me. Bug me always for like forever okay? I wont mind.
3.I'm so grateful that i have a work even though I'm so sleepy this morning.
4. I'm grateful to finally see Eva again in the office. ehehehe.
5. Dad cooking dinner for us. Delicious Fish adobo.  I love how the taste of ginger kind of bites you in the tongue.
6. A lot of ideas coming in my mind at the same time. I really have to implement them all.
7. I'm so grateful that I'm starting to love reading again. I completely stopped when i was twenty one, because i felt bombarded with so much information...Happy and proud with my progress now. Slowly reading Little Altars Everywhere. I so love Rebecca Wells. Gonna have a book review here soon.

Golden Globe Winner

And so she won. Yes she really did! here's Natalie Portman's winning look at the Golden Globes...

             You cannot see her bump but shes pregnant in here. Swertehon jd ng buros ba?

Pretty nice huh? That dress she's wearing is from Victor and Rolf. It's not really that beautiful and  I'm no fashion guru, but i like how glossy her dress is. The award given to her for her performance on the Black Swan was rightly so. If you haven't watched it you should go and check it out. Highly recommended.

Childlike

 

 To speak gratitude is courteous and pleasant,
to enact gratitude is generous and noble,
but to live gratitude is to touch Heaven.
—JOHANNES A. GAERTNER

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 16 2011

1. Sleeping beauty having a nice sleep. Mom waking us up. Ever so grateful i get to kiss my mom every day. Never missed a single day. I love to kiss my mom. And i love how her skin smells. Hmmm.
2. I am grateful that my lola, mom, sister and i went to celebrate mass together. 
3. I am grateful to see Archbishop Ledesma kuya/Father Leno and Father Oga officiating the mass. Oh im so happy to see Father Oga again. Smile. Holy people makes my heart happy and hopeful. Abba dear i love you. THank you.
4. I am grateful that I'm busy taking pictures. Art in lenses. Nice. Gonna post some of them here later. Happy fiesta everyone!
5. I am grateful that Balingasag is such a clean and peaceful place.I love their parks and their pantalan. I love thier old houses too.And that cute little army statue was such a delight to watch! ahaha never thought that it was the old Lolo Abuzo ehehhe.
6. I am so grateful that cloy-cloy can recognize me already. After waking up from sleep he run to me and said "tita". Ouch my heart is sooo touched by that one word. Happy receiving lots of kisses and hugs from cloy-cloy and kissing him back.
7.Mom sharing lots of things to us(me and my sister). Reminicing the past. Oh sad sad story. But im glad she's able to share it to us now. I wish i can heal those wounds and let the bitterness and pain go away. Now i understand my mom a lot better. Why she do the things she do.
8.Dad coming to fetch us is wonderful. And the LQ thing between my parents is somehow fixed. How beautiful is that? THank you Lord. THank you so much!
9. And finally, me realizing that if ever i get to marry someday. I hope that person will be able to leave everything behind just to be with me. To travel no matter how far i am just to keep me company. Yes i want him to leave everything just for me.

Pit Senyor!

 It is love that brings happiness to people.
It is love that gives joy to happiness.

—RUMI

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Things im grateful for today January 15 2011

1. I am grateful that we went to Balingasag to celebrate Sr St. Nino's fiesta.
2. The transportation going there was so smooth i am so thankful.
3. After arrival we had to run for shelter because it was raining so hard,and i cannot stop laughing after seeing those two gays coming to us wet from rain, the other one was talking so loud. Bayota ka! I was at their back laughing and i was shaking so bad i cannot control it. Took me a long time to hold myself. But just when i stopped, My eyes went to the butt of the loud gay and wouldn't you believe it, his jeans was so tight and low i can see his cleavage! Unbelievable! I gave in to my emotions and was laughing so hard and at the same time wishing to God he wouldn't turn around and slap me or something.The boys at the back where smiling too saying alkansya oh. Tickle me! tickle me! tickle me!. Smile smile smile!
4.I am ever so grateful today that i sleep so deep even though i wasn't able to go outside and celebrate. Sleeping beauty sure is well rested.
5. I am grateful i get to see cloy-cloy...Oh my pamangkin is a cute little boy. Those round sleepy eyes are the cutest. I so love my pamangkin! And i get to see my Lola, Papa Allan ate king-king, Dady Sam, Mommy Lelet, ate tetet and ate queenie. Happy day!
6.Thank you Father for this wonderful day. Thank you for my family and relatives. Even though mom and dad are having some LQ. ew.I am still grateful. Thank you. Viva, Pit Senyor!

Funny Emails

 “Lord, I receive, and I am grateful.”

—JOHN-ROGER

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 14 2011

1. Had a very funny email. A webmaster talks about my agenda and goes about describing the site's owner, how he is not only intelligent but a gentleman as well haha blah blah. Even asked me to call him over so that we can have lunch or coffee to discuss my proposal. :) What? Sometimes my work is not all about clear and persuasive negotiations. It's also about building relationships. waaaahh
2. Read cute-cute's  eulogy letter to Ma'am Ann again. Smile. It never fails to make me laugh. I should really post it here or something, so that i can look it up whenever im sad. ahhahah unsa na Therapy?
3. Asked my guardian angel to wake me up at 4:30pm and he did! Yes i did it for so many times already and it never fails. I felt so loved i wanna cry. Now i don't wanna abuse his kindness and reduce him to an alarm clock ehehhe. I love you my guardian dear. Thank you so much.
4.I am so grateful regarding my update with the t-shirt design. Interesting things coming!
5. I am grateful that Glaiza is with us in the office. She helps me a lot. Especially in evaluating sites and she is really good at it. Nothing beats knowledge through experience and time.
6. I am grateful for Janice. I asked help a lot and bother her so much i just hope she wont get irritated with me.
7. I am grateful that I'm learning a lot of technical aspects from this blog. Just have to remember to take things slowly.
8. Abba dear thank you for loving me so much. Your goodness and gentleness is beyond imagination. I cannot contain it, my heart cries with so much joy.I am and will always be forever grateful you are my God. Thank you.

Absentminded

 Love wholeheartedly,
be surprised,
give thanks and praise—
then you will
discover the fullness
of your life.
—BROTHER DAVID STEINDL-RAST

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Things im grateful for today Jan 13 2011:
1. Had everyone laughing because of my foolishness. Absentmindedly logged out from biometrics acct even when not yet supposed to. Naunsa naman ko oi. Well at least i am grateful i made everyone laugh. But this case is no laughing matter! I just cant help but laugh at myself no matter ahahha
2. Watched a movie the Black Swan. Im so glad i did. Learned something from it. And had a talk with the Lord Jesus after watching it. Abba dear see? I'm finally talking with your son! ahahah thank you much for giving me the grace to be close to him. Thank you. I love you.
3. Grateful for the very delicious viand. Ahahhaha
4. Grateful for my sister who cooked rice for me. Be sure doray it will not go unnoticed. hehehe Thank you Lord i Have an understanding family and a loving sister. Thank you much!!!!

Black Swan

So I've watched the Black Swan.yepey! The movie completely made an impression on me. Everything was about search for beauty and perfection -the ideal-and the pressure that comes along with it(in this case? Imagination gone wrong.Twisted even).Why is there a longing for us human for beauty? A deep hunger for applause and approval? the "look at me I'm beautiful and perfect". But in this movie to reach the beautiful you must first experience the dark side of what it is to be fully human. Ive always thought purity and holiness is beauty. What if you let go of yourself...what if you give in to your desires and sexual wants and longing...what if there is no conscience. what if there is no feeling of what is good and right. What if you let go of everything you hold dear in life...like values and morality for instance? What if you just let go and be the Black Swan? Would life be really beautiful after that? Would not guilt and sin haunt you...And if your tainted, and have given in to your hearts content all what you thought is right, would life be beautiful then afterward? What is beauty for you? What is perfection? Can your heart be ever satisfied once you know how it is to be fully human? And what is being human? Is it letting go of your self control? What is it? What is it like to feel everything? Spinning and spinning and spinning... Ive asked God why. Why did He allow it to be so. Why did he open our mind to the knowledge of evil? If we are created for Him? And there is one answer He told me - So that you may know what I am not.
To be human is to feel the pain of life, the joy of living, the laughter, the smile, the rain, the sun, the trees, and the person next to you with open eyes. Never judging. That's what it is to be human. You are free to be anything. Yes freedom, to choose and not to choose. Life or death. Light or darkness. It is yours for the taking. Yes freedom. Is. Beautiful. And there is only one beauty in life i hold dear and aspire to - Freedom from fear...freedom from being concern of what others think of me...Holy Freedom., behold the beauty of God.

Comment:  The movie was beautiful and the ending epic.
Fave quotes:  "Go touch yourself."
                       " Im frightened but now its perfect." 
Rate:  5 stars(thats my highest score)
Side comment:
      The touch yourself thing scene was completely awkward but i still have the courage to watch it..no i wasnt frightened a bit. But when the lesbian thing came out i freaked out. ahahhaha had to skip it. The little chicken was completely frightened. Maybe next time.
       It has a lot of scene where everything is just plain phychotic. Literally hurting yourself to cope with pressure. Is that some kind of disease? or just plain madness? Maybe i have to research on that.
      Watching Natalie dance is like watching a bird flying...Oh ballerinas can be so enchanting.
Actors and actresses: Natalie Portman was completely believable. She has such a weak and sweet voice it fits the role for the White Swan completely. And her smile is lovely.She is indeed an actress(at least that is what i thought of what it was like to be an actress in every sense of the word). And that girl Mila Kunis has got such beautiful and seductive eyes each with different color. Yes she is naturally seductive. There is only a few celebrities that i find very seductive even when not trying to.
 Fun part: The part where she was touching her self and wasnt fully aware that her mom was sitting at her side. The look on her face! Epic! The situation completely made me laugh! ahahaha
 Awful part: All the bleeding thing. Especially the part Where she had imagined herself peeling off her skin on her finger. Ew that was really gross. My brain jump a little at the sight of it.
 Realization: Movies can help you ponder and realize things. I just did. And that i never thought ballet could be that stressful. wew! The director Darren Aronofsky is something to be watched out for.

Pizza

 An attitude of gratitude creates blessings.
—SIR JOHN TEMPLETON

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 12 2011

1. Work. I cant tell you how grateful i am. Just imagine a whole lot of labhonons maybe 3 baskets nalabhan na. Well that is just how i feel about my work now. So thank you so Much Abba dear. ^^
2. I am ever so thankful that im done with my t-shirt design already...ehhehe not that i detest doing it but it was a little burdensome because i dont know much about photoshop. So i forced myself to study it for 4 days...ehehe. Thanks to youtube.com it came a bit handy. If your ever going to need a tutorial that has to do with Adobe i can certainly recommend tutvid- just look for his account on  YT. I just hope Ma'am Ann will like the design..ehehe. Well, i will know tomorrow. And i will post the design if ever it will get the approval it needs. Im +.
3. Eaten pizza again! ahahah yea i know two days in a row is not enough there's got to be a third. We will see about that. Thank you Father for providing money for me. I luvvh you much! ehhehe (pizza name:The GodFather, size:bigger, place:bfb ratings:4stars | company(lj, chariss, janice) ratings: 5 stars!) As of this moment im still full.
4. Ever so grateful for the mango fruit mom got from our backyard. It is the only thing i ate for dinner. Happy.
5. My brothers got to eat some pizza too and they are thankful i guess. ehehe Happy to see them eating. My brothers like foods that are "salin" me too and my sister, and even my mom..i guess it runs in the family. ^^
6. Super sleepy but still am grateful that i get to write Things Im Grateful for Today. Completely tired to write it on my gratitude journal.
7. Thankful for this lenovo notepad. Nothing beats the feeling of having it on your own. Its quiet in here now in the kitchen and i can see the reflection of the moon on the trees. Agora has never been this quiet before. I love it. holy hour. Some lamok in here turning into draculas argghhh! Unsa kahay gamit sa lamok ba? I mean unsa ila purpose sa world?
8. Doty is home na. hmmm me myself and i love loves to tease my little sister. THank you Lord.
till tomorrow then.

Watch if time is measured

 Gratitude is not only the greatest
of virtues,
but the parent
of all the others.
—CICERO

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So i woke up early today and work. Did this done that. >>Fast forward...Guess what? Finally have myself a watch from Uni silver.Cool. So these are the interesting things i did today.
1. Eaten a garlic chicken pizza from  Bianos with LJ and Chachuchang. I am super glad chariss is feeling generous today and she ordered one. The pizza is superb, you should definitely try it. i highly recommend.)
2.Went around strolling in LKKS with chariss and rode the new escalator fronting the east concourse. If ever your in a hurry to get in you should use it. Not much people are using it so it would definitely save you time. And speaking of time, finally found a wrist watch from UniSilver. ^^ Had a sudden impulse to buy it so i bought it. Nice. And what is more nice is that i get to have a free watch along with it. And Chachuchang must have been one lucky girl to be where she is at the moment because i feel like giving it to her. So.
3. Thought about giving my mom an increase in my salary remission. Smile. I guess today is a "give more" day. I also want to increase my tithes so indeed it is a give more day for me.
4. Went to SM with doty and shopped. Thankful for the fruit salad. Fruit salad in SaveMore is probably one of the best fruit salad i have ever tasted. It's fresh.
5. oh before i forgot. Added an additional book to be read in my list of To Be Read Books. Nice. Hopefully i will get to read them all before i buy another one. And by the way the book is entitled 33 things a girl should know. Interesting huh?

Thank you much

As the Father has loved me, so I have loved you;
Abide in my love. If you keep my commandments,
you will abide in my love, just as I have kept
my Father’s commandments and abide in his love.
I have said these things to you so that my joy
may be in you, and that your joy may be complete.
—JOHN 15:9–11

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So this is my first post and i would just like to say, Abba dear, thank you much!