This dance.

I want to dance in your infinite beauty.

So i may not look for anything else than you.

I want to immerse myself in the beauty of your holiness.

But how would i be able to do that?

Every time i contemplate your holiness,

I am made aware of my own wickedness;

of the filth in my soul,

of my ugly stains,

of my many imperfections.

I am made aware that i can never be worthy

of your presence.

I have lost the fight,

for a millionth time.

But you never seemed to mind my losing.

Maybe you think it is necessary for me to lose,

But i am covered with shame every time.

This soul wants to be free.

How long oh God,

would it take me to enjoy your presence

without feeling guilty

of what I maybe to you.

Author: Me, tabulyogang.info

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But as Rumi would say, i shall come and come again for a millionth time. Even if i have broken my vows. And you will have no choice, but to accept me, or rather to make myself accept me in the beauty of your presence.