I do not understand myself

Dry lands choking seeds
Heartbeat insensitive
To another heartbeat
The desire to do good
But becoming bad
Desire remaining a desire.

Afternoon heats
Humid life
Swelling vibrant earth
Seeds choking
The always pregnant earth
Wanting to give birth
At the edge yet not arriving.

It is not because you do not know
But because you do not try.
Undergo the process
Cry, wail, bleed.
Give birth
Let that desire be born.
Cry
Cry
Cry.


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