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The Right decision is the Decision to Love

2012-03-10T03:32:00.002-08:00

Sometimes we find ourselves asking if the decisions we made were the right ones. What would make us feel that yes the decision we made was right? Is there such guidelines for these? Of course assessing your situation is fundamental, calculating the risks and benefits is essential. But what would take us to make that leap to take the first step to decide and do it? And when is the right time? Especially if the decision is life changing in a way that it is a big thing for you.

Here are some questions that i found answers while asking God. You know that small, small voice that you know in your heart is true.

* How would i know if my decision is right or best for me?
- If you can find love in your every decision then that decision is best for you. Do not make the mistake of harboring hatred or negativity against yourself or anyone once you have made a decision. If that decision has love or was made because you found love on that decision then don't worry. Just let the negativity go; feelings come and go, but the decision made out of love stays. It will never fail.

Because sometimes i get so drama, i ask God these questions(listed down below). Sometimes we human need to be re-assured. I want to be assured. Every girl wants an assurance i think.

* Are you angry at me Father Dear?
- Sometimes i do.(Whattttt? haha) But you know, I decided to make you. And you can tell that that decision was born out of love. I love you. My love for you will never fail. I am love and you are my decision. Take comfort in that.

That was reassuring indeed! What a loving Father we have! eeet. :)

* Sometimes i flactuate. I'm like a switch. This time I'm good and hours later I'm bad. How can one be faithful?
- Fractions. Life is made up of moments. And in every moment there is a decision to make. Either to love or not to love. Not to love is fear, anxiety, jealousy, and the like. Life to the full is love; every single moment.

Life is not lived by seconds but by moments. Moment by moment is every breath you take than every seconds you experience. SO BREATH THIS MOMENT. Imagine. See. Experience life. Pulsate! And above all choose to decide in love!

What is it really like to truly care?

2012-03-09T02:40:00.007-08:00

* What makes a person care about someone? Is it blood? Friendship? Community? What truly makes a person care for other people?

I have this person in my life who truly test my patience. When i am with her, i feel bad about myself. My walls are up and I am ready to find faults. I don't want to feel this way and i am sorry if i keep feeling this way. When I am with her i LIE - i just cant speak the truth. I have no courage at all. She dis-empowers me and I am completely helpless.

I know she's a turmoil. She carries too much burden. I can feel it and it's heavy. She's too trusting. She's needy. Too needy for love and attention. And i have pampered her. Now, she is becoming a sucker of my energy. And she comes weekly! (Oh my, why do you have to do that?)

I am not saying that she's a bad person. No not at all. She's sweet, childlike, and straightforward, she talks too much sometimes and she is very opinionated. She readily laughs when people throw jokes at her. She even made me feel special one time, lightened up my day and lifted up my thoughts. All this negativity i feel about her are MY REACTIONS/FEELINGS towards her. I am dishonest and coward most of the time when we talk. She makes me hate myself.

I want to love her. I want to care for her. But i have no idea how to be courageous enough to tell her what she needs to hear. I have no idea how to tell her the truth. I know i am not the only one who feels this way about her. Almost all of us does. In fact we are convinced that she has an attitude problem; we have no proof how to determine this things but it's very evident (but could it be that she just lacks attention?...love? ... appreciation?....acknowledgement?) People sometimes dont pay her any attention. But i dont want to give up on her. Who am i to give up when God has not given up on me?

She needs me and she comes to me. I don't want to feel like exploding every time she comes to see me, because every time she does, she asks something of me; time and money (I dont care about the money, lol. haha) I care about how i feel about her, how i treat her, how i am when she is around being needy.

I want to tell her that she needs to stop lying to herself. She NEEDS TO STOP IT! And I've GOT TO TELL HER! I want her to realize the power of being true to oneself but she dis-empowers me with that very power.

I need her. Yes, i need her so i can overcome my fears of hurting her if i say what i truly feel and think about her. I need her so i can learn how to truly and genuinely care with no expectations of return at all. I need her so i can be sincere. Stop all the hypocrasy and start caring for people not because you need something from them but because you just truly care. And i want to care. I want to open up my heart wide enough to feel her pain. I want to give till it hurts, but not time and money; I want to give her the truth. I want to give her my honesty.

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A note to people who personally know me: I wrote this not for you to ponder who this person might be but for you to learn from my situation or better yet suggest a solution *wink. And if you have similar stories to tell, let's talk about it, not the person involved but how to better the situation. :) Thank you.

The Art of Asking Questions

2012-02-27T04:34:00.004-08:00

I know this is kind of weird but I think this is really important. There is beauty/art in asking questions. Yes even bad questions. I would like to share this because maybe you will learn too. When I was just a kid, I don’t ask questions much. Maybe because I’m like a sponge, I take everything good and bad and the very bad – personally. Maybe that’s why I grew up shy and aloof. I’m pretty scared of people most of the time. It is only now that I've started asking questions. Kind of shake my belief system. I know I’m not yet shaking it as hard as I would like to, because maybe if I’d do, the belief house would fall. And I wouldn't know what I’d be if that would happen. But in fairness I think that wouldn't be so scary. Confronting myself and my beliefs would be liberating I think. (That’s a comforting thought- that I actually think it would be liberating :p)

I’ve got a lot of questions about confidence and why I react or behave the way I do to certain situations or people. Haha. It’s fun. The art of asking questions is fun. But most especially, if you know how to ask the right ones.

Here’s one page of my many questions(I use my notebook every time I come up with questions, that means i write it down) This is really hard to show but I’m sharing it because maybe, just maybe, there are people out there who is just like me, and reading this would liberate her/him the way it did me from my insular mindset. lol.

What is my limiting belief?

That I am inferior to people who are successful(people who have much confidence – they believe in their work and they know what they do)

Why do I feel inferior to people who are successful? To people who exude much confidence?

I feel inferior and little because I believe I can’t contribute a thing. Because I want to please people, to show off, by being humble. Inferiority cloaked in humility, nay, timidity to the point of acting dumb. Because I thought if people think poorly of me, when I fail they would not blame me much, because what would you expect from timid people? I make excuse already for my future imagined mistakes! When in fact it is unlikely to happen! My brilliant defense mechanism!

What should I do to correct this wrong belief? This horrible fear of the future mistakes I will make?

Be brave, be you. What if instead of owning your imagined future mistakes, you try owning and living your potential. Start living to your potential. Your true potential. And imagine that.

Wow.

I ask those questions, not to myself but to God. And hearing those answers is like freedom. Here is the most important thing I learned. It is good to ask yourself questions but it is even better to ask God those questions, It is good to talk to yourself but even better to talk to God. In him is Wisdom.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6

NOTE: You Could Ask Anything. Absolutely Anything!

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Things im grateful for today

1. I'm grateful for my dad. He is getting old. And I need to be more patient with him; not the other way around. Don’t be so pabadlong. Remember that.

2. I'm grateful for Cherry (tbg). One of the most inspiring people who top my list right now. Enjoy her music.

3. I am grateful for you Abba dear. For not giving up. For all of us. Thank you.

Wrist Pain Solution; mouse speed

2012-02-16T00:52:00.001-08:00

If you've been experiencing wrist pain due to your mouse. I have good news for you. I found a brilliant solution over the internet on how to solve that. Basically if you've noticed, if you move your mouse from the left to the right edge of your computer screen, it takes a lot of wrist movement to that. So the idea is to lessen that movement to stop the strain. To do that, we have to speed up the motion of our mouse. Ready? Here we go...

1. First step is to go to your control panel > Hardware and Sound > Mouse

That is currently my mouse speed's setting :)

2. Once your in the Mouse Properties, click the Pointer Options and in the Motion change the speed of the mouse from it's default setting to 2-4 notches up. And viola!

Notice how easy it is now to reach the far end side of your screen with little movement from your wrist.
I hope that helps!

Source: Steve Pavlina go visit his site; ill guarantee youll definitely learn something!

Things Im grateful for today:
1. Im grateful for my work and that i am working telecommute, which means i have total control over my time. Thank u Lord :)
2. Im grateful for my brothers chicks. haha. the sound they make can bring you to awareness. We have a lot of chickens and roosters here i tell you.
3. I am grateful for my life and for who i am. Really.
4. I am grateful for my brothers and sisters. I am also grateful for the Durian fruit dad bought. Oh the smell of it! Taste heavenly!

Speed Dating!

2012-02-10T03:15:00.000-08:00

I've got a secret to tell. Here it is: I went speed dating two days before my birthday.wooo.God, if someone would know, especially my friends id be dead. Dead of teasing that is! haha. I cant believe i did it! But le me first explain why i went, because i would not do it for the life of me! I went because im gonna be 24 soon, and i want to do something wild, let's put that mildly- i want to do something memorable while im still 23, it was, in a weird way. And also because the proceeds of the said event is for the typhoon sendong victims, and also because my cousin's manager is it's organizer and i just cant say no to my cousin. I have to explain you know.

So what is Speed Dating? Speed dating based on wiki is a formalized matchmaking process or dating system whose purpose is to encourage people to meet a large number of new people. Its origins are credited to Rabbi Yaacov Deyo of Aish HaTorah, originally as a way to help Jewish singles meet and marry. Men and women are rotated to meet each other over a series of short "dates", usually lasting from 3 to 8 minutes depending on the organization running the event. At the end of each interval, the organizer rings a bell, clinks a glass, or blows a whistle to signal the participants to move on to the next date. At the end of the event participants submit to the organizers a list of who they would like to provide their contact information to. If there is a match, contact information is forwarded to both parties. Contact information cannot be traded during the initial meeting, in order to reduce pressure to accept or reject a suitor to his or her face. bwahaha on the last part!

Basically that's what happened, but Philippines being Philippines have a different version. It was supposed to be 12 dates in one night, 12 Men and 12 Women. The funny part was that the GIRLS OUTNUMBERED the BOYS in a ridiculous way. 16 GIRLS came that night and only 7 BOYS came. Seriously girls, are we that desperate? bwahhaha. Before the event started, small group of girls in different tables were busy chattering and doing some make up. I put some lipstick on just to feel and convince myself that i am a woman already, it's like a - i can do this gesture, don't be so pale! I was so nervous i could die! Especially when i saw the young men entering the room(They look good and presentable by the way, in which i was pleasantly surprised). My sister and cousin were laughing at me. They were like haven't you done this before? Went on a date? Okay, i look stupid, i am nervous, and i haven't went on a date in my 23 years of existence. I know, i know. (Please don't get me started with my "i still have a lot of things to figure out and i don't want to explain my feelings").

Now, because we girls outnumbered the boys so much, what happened was, there were two girls in one table. We were only given four minutes to "date" the boy before the bell rings. Have you heard a trio date before? Nope? Well, basically that's what happened on my first date. The funny part was that the girl who's with me, we have the same name! Competition ba etitch. haha. To tell you the truth i scanned her. Just so i know i CAN and am worthy to be in the table with her. God, she's so tall and all. Insecurity attack! Rotation started, the boys come and go. All 7 of them. One word: AWKWARD! It was the most awkward experience i have ever been! I have to tell you. I know 4 minutes is so short, yet we run out of words. After introducing ourselves, every boy was like what should i say? Is there anything you want to know? What is your hobby? Do you like sports?(Yes, i have no sport) Then silence. If ever your going to a date like this, it helps that you have some ball pen or something to hold with your hands, you'll gonna need it when it starts getting boring. Boring and awkward and you want to laugh at the situation and you look at your girl partner and she smiles and agrees with you. Well, Sheena and i kind of developed an alliance. She was like giving me signals with her face expression like - oh he's good, approved! or OMG he sucks! he's cute.
I learned one thing from that experience and that is, i like men who are honest and open. I discovered that most of the girls were college students and some of the boys too. Their teacher kind of forced them to join. haha. The Speed dating event made me realized that yes i am worthy of love and that i am enough. And that i am not that bad. I wanna cry. haha And that out of the 7 boys, the one with the laser eyes caught my attention. For some reason i can't look straight at him because if i did, those eyes would melt me.

evidence!

P.S. I wanna say thank you to my new followers. Hey there Isadora, buzzlightyear and Rhea!

Upset: The reason behind your feelings

2012-01-05T07:07:00.000-08:00

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Ive been so upset today with my work. I have this problem with my webmaster and i just dont know what to do and where to start to solve it. I was stuck literally. Spend hours and hours going through the web without being conscious of what im doing just so i can delay dealing with my immediate problem. My favorite form of scape. I was so upset, i wasn't able to do anything with my time at wok. Half of my day was ruin. The list of things i want to do wasn't done. It's like being in the middle of a traffic- everything got congested. It's like watching a bad domino effect before your very own eyes. I was so upset because i cannot move on to other tasks at hand without solving it first(i dont know why im like this. Perhaps because deep down i believe in doing the difficult task first.). The feeling was so overwhelming i wasn't able take it anymore. I have been to so many problems like this that finally today i was able to catch myself. My thought process was, Why am i feeling like this? Why am i so upset? Do i truly recognize my problem? Is this such a big deal? The moment i started questioning my feelings about what's bothering me was the moment i took the initial step to solve it. I started asking my workmates of their opinion about it and i realized it wanst that bad at all. In fact it was such a small thing that it makes me wonder that it bothered me. From the moment i looked at my reaction(feelings) to the problem was the moment i took action to solve it. I prayed and ask God for help and decided not to fret about it anymore. And viola! Just like magic. The feeling was gone. I wasnt upset anymore. Got my head cleared. Took action and i was able to solve it. I was so lifted up. I felt wonderful. The genius has come and ole to me! :)

Things im grateful for today
1. I am grateful that i was able solve my problem and discovered a new way of approaching upsetting situations.yay!
2. Grateful for Keong2. He's a kind of person who teach by example without him knowing it. Im glad im arround people like him. It makes you want to be better a person.
3. I am grateful for TED videos on youtube of remarkable people. It is inspiring. One day im gonna be up there gracing their show as a speaker. hehe.
4. I am so grateful for this video of Elizabeth Gilbert the Author of "Eat, Pray, Love". This has touched a portion of my life and made me realized something really important about my work life. Enjoy watching it and i hope you will find a glimpse of inspiration. And Ole to you!

for subtitle u can click the cc button *wink*

5. I am grateful for my two new followers. MarkSFO and Rhea Liza hello there beautiful souls! :)

Books Im planning to read this 2012.

2012-01-05T04:09:00.000-08:00

"There is no such thing as a moral or an immoral book. Books are well written, or badly written."

- Oscar Wilde

Here is a list of books im planning to read this 2012. Im not that much of a reader so im trying to be one now. Help me God. This is not much but i know somehow it will force me to focus on my goal. My books have become so dusty they deserve my attention. To all you book lovers out there, it would really mean a lot if you could give me ideas on how to achieve my goal.

Books i have on my shelf that needs reading:

1. A Sand County Almanac by Aldo Leopold - (this one talks about our environment, i am really interested.)
2. Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder - (A novel about philosophy. I am currently reading this now :)
3. The Giver by Lois Lowry - (done reading this one but would like to read it again. I was not able to understand it that's why.)
4. Anne of Green Gables by L.M. Montgomery - (halfway through; read again)
5. The Great Gatsby by Fitsgerald
6. A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L'Engle
7. Fear and Trembling by Amelie Nothomb
8. As A Man Thinketh by James Allen - (one of my fave book, re-read)
9. Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli - (one of my fave also, would love to read again)
10. The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy
11. The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren - (Was able to read the 1st chapter only; allocate 40 days of reading)
12. Life of Pie by Yann Martel
13. The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
14. Frankenstein by Shelley
15. Small Change by Susan and Larry Terkel
16. Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden
17. The Examined Life by Helming
18 The Picture of Dorian Gray - (Was able to read the first few chapters and then stopped, I can't stand Dorian's vanity, would love to try it again this time)
19. A Thread of Grace by Mary Doria Russel
20. One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
21. Reading Lolita in Tehran by Azar Nafisi
22. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
23. The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkein
24. Your Best Life Now by Joel Osteen
25. Three Cups of Tea by Greg Mortenson -(was not able to finish)

So that's 25 books all in all. As you can see the pattern, i have a way of reading books without even finishing them. I'm like a rolling stone when it comes to books, i gather no moss. Sometimes i get really lazy especially if the book aint fun at all. The tendency to doze off is really high. But, hey i can read books in one sitting, like really funny books. I love books that have humor glimmering in every page.
One way to attack/achieve my goal is to maybe read one book for a week and then for those books that i want to read again it would be for December. There are 52 weeks in a year but im making allowances so 25 books to read for one year would probably be enough. What an allowance that is! Aint bad, aint bad.
If you have any suggestions, i would love to hear from you.

Thank you 2011

2011-12-25T23:10:00.000-08:00

"We steadily grow into the likeness of that which we constantly love"

- Christian Larson

As we leave 2011 i shall count all the things i am grateful for that have touched my heart.

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I am truly grateful for the trees!

- Yes the trees! Because in them i see God. In them i feel hope and peace so calm. When i am angry i look at trees or when i miss talking to God, I look at trees- I look at trees all the time! They seem to know a lot of things. They go down through history. Some a thousand years old! take for example the Old Tjikko, a 9550 year old Norway Spruce, is the oldest known living individual clonal tree. yay! (Take a look at wikipedia to see a list of the oldest trees.) And lastly because the trees know how to celebrate life. haha

I am grateful for my SFC family!

- For the bond we made and will be making. For knowing that i am not alone. And for being certain that we are all a work in progress. I am truly grateful for everysingle improvement that we make in our daily lives! I am excited to see how much we will improve by the end of 2012 already. In you i know that we are all learners in life, may God melt and mold us and fill us with His Holy Spirit so that we can build each other up. We will run the race together and we will pray for each other.

yay! I wish i can have a workstation at home as lovely as that! image

I am grateful for my work!

- For my work reveals my weaknesses and my strength. I can see myself a whole lot better because i have work to do. And how i do it reveals my true character especially now that i am working telecommute in which i feel so blessed(Working at home is a privilege not available to many hehe ). It is indeed true that "The reward of our work is not what we get, but what we become."

I am grateful for my family and friends!

- Life would be meaningless without your family and friends! For what would be the reason for all your hard work if you cannot share your life with them? I am grateful that i have an understanding family. Because who can stand my whims and laziness? haha for all the second chances they gave and for not counting mistakes. I have the best family there is! I am also grateful for my friends! You are God's gift to me. I see beauty in you. We are friends because we resonate the same level of weirdness. hehe

I am grateful for those blogs i visit often because they inspire creativity and constancy:

Karenika.com - I think i have grown to love karen's blog without me knowing it. I love seeing Nathaniel and David grow. haha from having a tooth remove to seeing a new smile. I love how karen documents her day with her family. And not to mention her layouts! I love how she's constantly doing what she loves.

http://blog.vanillerygarden.com/ - Natalie is oozing with creativity. Her drawings and stuffs are so cute. haha and her cats too! She's a free spirit! I love how honest and open her writing is! And i love the fact that she's in her 20's just like me.

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheBathroomGirl - yay! For Cherry is on the top list of my "inspiring people". Her music and the work that she does. Her whole character is just inspiring. For inspiration, I advise you to go check her out.

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<-- And lastly i would like to take this opportunity to thank the person responsible for me having my own domain. haha. Cute2 you are! Ikaw na! :) Thank you so much cute for buying me my own domain and for the $1 thing. haha. You made my Christmas memorable with your gift. Thank you, thank you!

I wish you all the best in life! Carry healing, love, joy and encouragement as you go through life!

Always forever in gratitude,

tabulyo -

Blog Award

2011-10-04T05:20:00.000-07:00

"You are special because you are you"

Yehey i got an award for the first time evah! Thank you Chang! I dont know what you are suppose to feel when you get an award like this but it's an AWARD so i guess special. It says in here "Heart Locket Blog Award- Because Youre Special" I personally choose this coz ive got two awards ~~even though i would have wanted the owl~~ and the other one is a picture full of hearts. I'm grateful for my award. THank you chang you are so sweet to include me in your list of honorees. I know im suppose to like pass this on to wonderful bloggers but i dont think those people i follow read my blog. teheeeee! So im gonna keep this one for myself for now and then maybe find someone wonderful and special to pass this on. To continue the Legacy eh? I feel special. And so does my blog. Thank you thank you.

Things im grateful for today! Huray for gratitude lists! IM SO BACK!

1. Im grateful for me and my daddy's little plant.It's a Lemon plant! The one you use when you drink a lemonade. weee I actually saw it in a multi cab and got attracted with the big fruit it has. For a small plant to carry such big fruits is a peculiar sight for me. This one costs Php 200. and those with the big fruits were like a thousand pesos! Im actually waiting for the day it will bear fruits! Ah. And yes ive taken care of it, soiled it, watered it, talked to it, every single day for two days now.

She is placed on our rooftop. Alone. I'm planning to make a garden for now lets be content with her.

Her view. Amazing. Agora baby!

2. Im grateful for me and my sister's white boards!

That's mine!

And this one's for my sister :p Ya i know mine's like 1/10th the size of my sister's white board.

I kow you wanna take a look.....

haha she's having her final exam for this semester. And she's counting it down! Lord God help her. Make her to study the things that will come out in the exam. In Jesus name! :p I love you Lord. hehe

3. Im grateful for my Rosary. Little Loncio actually tore it this morning and im a whole lot angry with him this morning. But im all well now. Get angry if you must but never hate.

I was actually attracted with the color that's why i bought it. Gotta start praying sheen!

4. Grateful for my books!

Notice the two bible :p that's mine and my sister. I bought it for her. I bought one also for my brother. I'm a book hoarder than a reader. I think i spend much time scouting for books than actually reading them!

I need to start reading. I know.

4. Im grateful for my brothers and sister. And for moments like these....

And lastly here's a treat for you. Im actually grateful for little loncio the mischievous one!

See him?

That's our Little Loncio on the left. Haha.

Have a good day everyone!

Be. Live. More.

2011-09-23T08:13:00.000-07:00

Wanting to be more is a dreadful feeling. It stretches you like a rubber bond. Life has been awfully stagnant for me and there is this constant desire to want more out of life. Like be more mature, be more caring, be more responsible, laugh more, enjoy life more, live more, serve more, be holy, be beautiful, be more like Jesus...and all the more's i could think of to be. I have gone out to search on how to resolve this. Like read self help books(ive read a lot!) - really you can learn from this but i tell you, all those ideas the authors gave will all the more stretch you to do this and do that. You have not even began your work and your already tired. That's what ideas can do. Small change i shall say. If you are not careful you will be fully loaded and will not even be able to understand yourself why you are not satisfied with what you do. You have set a standard for yourself without even conscious about it. Now not hitting those standards will make you feel dissatisfied. That's what reading ideas can do. It slowly creeps on your skin and then on your brain. Oh the things you read. I hope we can have some recycle bins in our minds so we can throw them out or better yet shift+delete(that's how to permanently delete a file folks! ) all the things we have downloaded in there. This is the reason why sometimes i don't get myself. Wanting to be more is a good thing but it hides under a cloud of doubts. If you don't have the sun to shine through it i tell you- you can get lost with the overwhelming sensation of doubts and doubts and doubts. As what St Paul says "I do not understand what I do. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.." We are all dealing here with oldest and the newest = Time. Time is what you have but do not own and time as they say and i agree is precious. What you do with it will determine on who you will become.

To whoever or whatever the name of the force/forces(for they are too strong for me) maybe that brings about the stretch I am utterly grateful. For you bring out the true me and you bring out the "who" i decide to be.

If you are wondering what i have learned from all of this St Paul again can explain(isn't it wonderful to find out that saints do experience what we are going through?)

So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!

and Amen! i say to that! Thank you Lord for you are my hope. On you i shall i put my trust. My rock and my salvation. My Jesus Christ, my God and my Lord. Rule my life. - You know in the end all i want, all i really want is just to please you.

Dopie Slippers!

2011-09-09T20:09:00.000-07:00

It's in the little things. You find joy and happiness! -me

And so my sister and I wanted to start the day right. And what better to do than go shopping? Yea i know. It just feels good to buy. It's time to buy slippers! And look at what we found.

Looks fun right?

We found them inside Save More Market. I dont know what they are called but their brand name is Dopie. Ya dope. I know the original is so much more expensive, like 1 original =10 dopie's. Are you kidding me?
These one felt good and they are so comfy so all in all it's a good buy. yehey! hooray for good buys!

The black one is mine :)

Look at the little boy!

I bought one for mys sister, 1 for my mom, 1 for me and 1 extra. The extra one is supposed to be for my cousin but it did not fit her. Too bad. :( Im keeping it and ill be looking out for a lucky cinderella. yay!

The Book Of Everything

2011-08-16T13:27:00.000-07:00

The Book About Everything is written by Guus Kuijer Nietherland's best known and best loved writers. In 2005 The Book of Everything won The Flemish Golden Owl Award and the Dutch Golden Pencil Award. This book was translated by JohnNieuwenhuizen.

Thomas sees things that no one else can see - like frogs wriggling through the letter box and tropical fish swimming in the canal. He sees angels cover their eyes and weep when his father hits his mother.

He writes everything down in his secret notebook, including his greatest hopes and darkest fears. Then an unlikely friendship leads Thomas to a startling revelation: that happiness begins with no longer being afraid.

Fave Quotes:

"When i grow up, I am going to be happy" - Thomas
"Do you know how happiness begins? It begins with no longer being afraid." - Mrs Van Amersfoot
"A man who hits his wife dishonours himself."
"You are strong because you are kind" - Jesus to Thomas (Thomas talks to Jesus and gets a reply, i mean they chat for like real)

My take:
This book is about a boy named Thomas who wants to be happy. Thomas is on a family where his Father hits his Mother and where every time he does something wrong his father hits him with a wooden spoon. Its a very sad and touching book, when the hitting starts to begin he imagines it like rain pouring down and that he no longer exist. But this book is simply written and you will feel close to the characters it becomes beautiful then. I get to like some of the characters like Margot(i liked her at the end part of the book, what she did was surprising and brave) and Mrs Van Amersfoot the witch. I have seen a lot of families with the same situation, I can really relate with this book. Happy childhood is indeed important because it shapes you. It shapes who you become in the future. I wish no child should ever undergo this same kind of situation- seeing your own father hits your mother and being helpless about it. But for those who is now going through the same ordeal i wish that you like Thomas will find your own happiness, and it starts with no longer being afraid.

One fact: My mother gets to read this book too.(The book is too short, like 118 pages short) not that my mother reads only short books. Anyways, she said this relates to old generation family. This kind of Father belongs to some past. He sort of does not exist now, maybe we can have some but only a little for those who still do this kind of punishment. I kind of agree with my mom and maybe you will too when you get to know the character of the Father. He is very religious.

Oh i forgot to mention, there is a love story in this book. A very cute love story. The love story of Thomas and Eliza. hehe Im in the mood so im going to write Thomas love letter to her. Now that's a bonus for you. Here it is

Dear Eliza,

Maybe you think you are not beautiful because you have a leather leg that creaks when you walk. Or because one of your hands has only a little finger and nothing else. But that is not true. You are the most beautiful girl in the world. I think that later you are going to live in a castle with a Rolls-Royce in the driveway. I do not write this because i want to go out with you, for you are already sixteen and I am only nine(nearly ten), so that is not possible. I write it because it is true.

O pure innocent love! aw.

Focus your thoughts on things that will make you happy

2011-08-07T20:27:00.000-07:00

"But when Peter saw how strong the wind was he became frightened; and, beginning to sink, he cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus stretched out his hand and caught him, and said to him, “O ye of little faith, why did you doubt?” - Matthew 14: 31

See how peter started to sink when he lost focus. To my sink and swim see how fragile i am.

Because i have been so down and so demotivated(char) for like forever...hahah i have to get my mind off things even people that are not worthy of my attention. And for me to do that i need to focus on things that makes me happy. And what are those? hehe. The word Wish List is dancing in my head and in front of me. So here it is:

1. I want to make beautiful things. Cute beautiful things! Arghhh.

2. Doraemon. I want a doraemon stuff toy. Or anything that involves doraemon. I dont know why but it has become a symbol of unconditional love for me now. haha
3. A garden. Yes i want a garden for myself. I have no idea where to start or how to do this but i surely do want one. Oh please Lord please please give me a garden...hehehe
4. Wisdom and knowledge... Wisdom to read people's intentions and sincerity.
5. A sanctuary....i want to find my place. My spot to think things through and through. Someplace to pray and talk to God. hehehe Whether up in a tree or under a tree. haha It wont mater as long as im in a place over looking the vast ocean. Someplace to take my imagination somewhere, someplace comforting and familiar. Hahaizt...

I wish now to move on and do my part of the job. To let the records reflect that today and for tomorrow i did my part of the job. And just like what Elizabeth Gilbert says...whether or not the genius comes Ole, to me nonetheless. Yes- Ole, to me nonetheless!

Im more happy being grateful

2011-07-07T20:06:00.000-07:00

Yet, even now i know;

The Lord will work wonders for me

and it will infinitely surpass my boundless desires

-from little flower adopted by little flock a.ka. tabulyo

And because for the past three months i have been so busy being tired after every shift(night shift is such an energy sucker) There are a lot of things ive missed and failed to consistently do! First and foremost is of course my daily gratitude list! Ive noticed i am unpleasant when i forget to do this. Somehow something is missing. And that i am more fearful and so much more reserved. ahahaha wanna feel like living in a cave?... and secondly i have forgotten to do my water color weekly project- This is something that i really want to pursue. So without much further a do here are the things im grateful for today.

I am grateful for our Media Negotiation Training and Workshop. The passion these people have with their work is admirable-i hope it will rub off of me. hehehe. I am thankful that they actually thought of sharing their knowledge to us. I am in awe of how knowledgeable and generous these people are. And somehow in the depths of me i am glad i am a part of them.

I am grateful for all the internal trials i have been experiencing. I know its hard and heavy inside but i am thankful and full of gratitude for these trials. Because in them i know that God is at work in me. So now i will let go and stop worrying about it. I will abandon myself to God and let him do what he wants to accomplish in me. As what St Therese says “You do not need to know what the good Lord is doing in you; you are too little.”. I will be content with that.

I am grateful for my friends. They are my happiness. A part that makes life a whole lot more beautiful.

I am grateful for Eva and Sheila- you two are God's instrument. Thank you.

I am grateful for Ate Nessa and Lovely and for Ave too- nothing beats old friends.
NOw im missing the 7 dwarfs.

I am grateful for kenny and chang2 and cute and mimai, glaiza, bernie, jeah, jessie and kuya jones too.

I am grateful for my life for what i express and for who i am.

I am grateful for my God and for his love that knows no fear. May i learn to love that way.

Im grateful for the story ive read about a girl who is so shy that even saying hello to other people took a lot of courage. Now she is a successful businesswoman because somehow she said she has been so accustomed to using her courage often that in time of great need for it it has somehow seen her through.- i cried while reading her story. The little girl in me who has been in great pain has been touched.

I pray for healing and for acceptance. For peace and for learning to live it.

Things ive pondered as true

2011-06-24T06:46:00.000-07:00

"Life is a series of lessons and opportunites,

not a series of mistakes and inadequacies."

Image from here

Today is a list of all the things ive pondered as true(proven or not) or at least thought to be true for me and also a list of my current activities. hahaha and a mixture of both. So let's start!

1. Singing is just like playing games! Just like skipping ropes! Timing and fearlessness is required and the courage and abandonment to try it because you want to play. - Things ive pondered while learning to sing. hahhaah

Why if my country is not dubbed as the singing nation of Asia i wouldn't have cared less if im so out of tune. hahaha all my colleagues knows how to sing really well. Everybody i know of seems to know how to sing! argghhh hahaha Its like 1 out of 10 and im that 1. (Not that im frustrated or something) lol. seriously.

2. English can be fun. Respect.

Discretion is synonymous to prudence - it made me respect taht word more! haha.

It is fun looking for the synonyms of the word than looking its meaning up. Either way you arrive at something true. I suggest take the more pleasurable path! Because that is what learning is all about. PLEASURABLE!

I wish i had discovered this way back in high school. To look for synonyms rather than its meaning. Coz somehow its more fun that way. Meanings can be burdensome you know. haha

Like divulge is reveal, but divulge sounds so much more manly to me! haha and i love how it sounds!

Like how interference is like meddling and prying.(sounds like gossip to me) But im more into the electronics side so id like to imagine interference for a channel(tv or radio) that has been distracted by outer factors. Sort of the static voice for the radio and a sudden black or white disturbance for the tv. -Oh how playful words can be!

3. That it is okay to get angry but don't sin. To acknowledge your feelings yet not do something that will lead you to sin. That gentleness and faithfulness is the fruit of the Holy Spirit and 7 more others. That i am not trying to be spiritual here. hahaha. That the best thing you can do with your life is to ask for the gift of the Holy Spirit which will teach you all truths.

5. And lastly and more importantly this one: That Christ searches not for malice but for ignorance and screams out not in pain but in forgiveness. -Ive read that in a book. hahha but it is true. The kind of truth that will pierce your heart and mind. Can you do that? to not search for malice but rather for ignorance to someone who have wronged you? What a profound idea this is!

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Things im grateful for today

1. For being able to remember Enola's request! yayka. Thank you Abba-cakes!

2. Im happy today. And i am grateful!

An entry On my gratitude journal:

Thank you Lord for this wonderful morning. Thank you for the birds in our backyard. For our mango fruit. For our chickens and for my brothers and sister and for my cousin Reyna. Thank you Lord for my parents and for our house. Thank you for the healing in the morning and for the grace that comes with it. Thank you for your unfathomable mercy and for your humor. Thank you so much Lord God. You are wonderful to me.

One Small Step at a Time

2011-06-15T03:48:00.000-07:00

Thats really cute! u go chic! or is it a duck?

One small step at a time. That would be my motto for this month. hehe i know its a little late being halfway through with the days of June but still small change adds up right? Right. :D There are a lot of things i wanna say right away- right this very moment, but words if they can travel fast especially English can get congested right trough my neck. hahaha. So i will remember my one small step...first off i wanna say thanks. :D Okay lets get this numbered.

1. Thank you to all my new lovely followers. hehe i never thought i can be this interesting. haha. Thank you to Jen (i was really shocked and surprised to see you here in my blog. It cant be but that hair of yours is unmistakable :) ) to Mengenai my nose is bleeding while reading your blog. hahaha, to Solelyshe thanks ill visit ur blog soon! and lastly to Stephanie salamat i followed you back! Thanks it is a treat to see all of you dropping by. hehe.

2. I am thankful for the Gift of acceptance. Life is not easy sometimes especially people. They can really get into your nerves. But as they say Light is the only way to dispel darkness and love is the only way to dispel hatred. And love for me at this moment of my life now has taken a new form in the word of ACCEPTANCE. I think Love is a gate and Acceptance is the key. And if you get to open it, you'll have heaven on earth. hehe i think that is some kind of prudent of me to think that. hahaha. YOull never really know what you can come up with with a keyboard and a monitor(A new way to ponder things! ). :p

3. I am grateful that i finally made it to my dentist! hahaha. Got my tooth pulled out. I can still feel the effects of anesthesia in my mouth. Im grateful for my Ate king and Otingkay for coming with me. You guys are the best!

4. Grateful for the spaghetti chachuchang brought! I was so hungry last night! THanks chang gpakaon jd ko nimo literally! Ur like my big sister! hahaha thank you for taking charge every time i get so bataot. :D. Belated.

5. Im grateful for dai Eva! Dai Eva my sister in Christ. Hehehe you are God's instrument. God's hope and God's messenger. Thank you dai for letting me bother you every time i am bothered. hahaha

6. Bought two books! hahaha I think i am now officially more of a book hoarder than a reader. WHat to do? One small Step At a Time.

7. And lastly i am grateful for doing this. Writing down all the things im grateful for today. Life is good. :p

And my one small step, my one small change for this June is to smile. That's it. To SMILE :D

P.S. Im super grateful for twitter. Work would be a little boring without it.

Martha Graham

2011-05-11T01:44:00.000-07:00

Today May 11, 2011, Google features Martha Graham's 117th birthday with an animation by Ryan Woodward. I was very much fascinated by it. I thought it was some kind of a ninja moves. You know the Naruto kind of way. But no, it was Martha Graham. A dancer as ive found out. And if not for google i would have not read this text from her The Life and Work of Martha Graham writing. Come read along with me this precious text. And let us all learn something from it. This is especially to those who feel they have an artist inside of them. hehe

There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. ... No artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others."

source from wikipedia .

What more can i say? Beautiful isnt it? To life, beauty and art!

Camiguin Island (Holy Week)

2011-04-27T10:03:00.000-07:00

Went to Camiguin Island for Holy Week. A three and a half day vacation! yay. Ive got lots and lots of pictures. But because this is the one i miss most during my childhood days i will post this first....

Yes i went sailing. Together with my two cousins and my lil bro. By the looks of it, from where i am sitting i am the driver. :D

Hahahah.I love these three!

We want to go to Matangad. Location of The famous horse. Local stories has it that there was this pantion(i have no idea whats the english word for this) of gold in that place. That one of my relatives(i dont know his name) spotted it but he had no idea how to get the pantion of gold out of the water. So he just keeps on coming everyday and looking at the pantion. One day locals saw this very big boat anchored on that place. A rather unusual site. When my relative returned to look at it again it was already gone. (too bad, that's what u get for being selfish. hehehe)The boat was rumored to be owned by the Rodriguez family. Who owns a helicopter, boats and barges and even a private airport. They are indeed wealthy but not that influential because as i and all of us camiguinons know, Camiguin is controlled and sort of owned by the Romualdo's. Well anyway. Lets not talk about that here. hehehe

Ah. Matangad is on the other side of that bend there.

We are getting closer...

And closer...

yay. look at that!

And that....

And ooopss...water pollution.

And were here....

I dont know if you can spot it. But that's him on the center. The famous horse.(it does looks like a horse on sideview). We did not come closer coz its a little bit awry and dangerous. yay. Those stones are huge and the place is so quiet. Arent we brave? :p

Little brother caught a fish while we were returning home....

Hahaha its so small! But look at how proud he is! hahhaha oh happy day!

Watercolor week7

2011-04-13T04:42:00.000-07:00

THis is like watercolor and everything in between. So lets start!

Because we went to Guadalupe and most of the place has something that looks like this. And when i saw it i put a mental note to remember so i will be able to draw it. NOw Im trying to draw something from my imagination. And this is my first attempt. All of my painting here has a model.

Im using 3 brushes at a time. I find it funny hahahaha.

Now when i get to the water part(the river) I have no idea how to move on. And someone so cute and naughty is bothering my art in progress...

He has a masking tape on his face! I dont know what got on his head. Oh Kids!

That's Argel but we call him Loncio. I think when i do something like this i tend to attract attention in the house coz they want to have a part on it too. You know. Heres my brother. Showing me how to do the water part.

He is so dirty and with no shirt on because he was trying to cook chicken for us. I love my little brother. Here's what he has done....

Oh dear i dont know if i like that at all! Its a river not a sea! It is suppose to be crystal clear. hahahahaa. Well anyways lets continue...

So the place in my memory looks something like this...

hehehe not bad. hahahaha. And just because i tend to gravitate people when i do this and somehow bring out the artistic part in them. My brother's best friend, his name is Henelia, says he wants to try it too. SO i let him...

And viola!

This is what he did. Yay.Very nice. I now do believe that what you paint is a reflection of you. Look at that! Henelia is bold and fearless. And somehow the painting reflects him. Agree? :p

Okay see you next week! :p

Daily Gratitude.===========================================================

P.S. I have a lot of things to be grateful for and let me tell you one of those incident which topped the list. I was again caught by my manager sleeping while on work. She kind of woke me up and i was so surprised that i shouted just a little bit. I was so embarrassed that i went laughing uncontrollably. I cannot stop nor contain myself. I just went on laughing with her watching with a look of confusion on her face. hehehe i love my manager. hahahaha
2. God must have been delighting himself on me that i get to laugh even on the smallest things lately. And i am ever so grateful. Thank you Lord. Abba-cakes salamat. :p
3. God forgives. And i am grateful for his immeasurable mercy. It covers the whole world.
4. For Mimai's fruit salad.

Smile that heals

2011-04-07T23:27:00.000-07:00

"Peace begins with a smile."

-Mother Teresa

Just before i head back to sleep i just wanna list the things im grateful for today and maybe talk a little about what im going through. Confess i guess. Here we go. I have been so harassed this past few days. Just to let you know harass is the word we use when being tempted by the devil by my SFC family. (strong word eh?) Yes i have been so angry at everyone and myself without really any reason at all. Just being angry and stubborn. gah i dont really have any idea what's going on. I cant even control my emotions. For a moment i thought i wanna be selfish, i wanna go wild, stop caring, forget everything. Something like that. Its really heavy to carry when you are at that state. It is painful coz sometimes you hurt people with you knowing, which is even more painful. But then i go back and look at those pictures of people who inspire me. And i notice all those people have got beautiful smiles. I thought to my self. They are so beautiful because they are at peace with themselves. When i look at them i see kindness. arggghhhh The beauty of a kind heart. It shines and heals. It reads you and says to you i know your wounds. I remembered i read about a story of St. Therese of Lisieux and of how she was healed by her sickness. In her diary she said she saw Mama Mary smiling at her and then she was suddenly cured. It must have been a smile of kindness. The kind of smile that only kind people can produce and show and there is no way of faking it. No wonder St. Therese was healed by Our Lady's ravishing smile. Because when i see people who has got those smile it does something with my soul. A kind smile can certainly heal.

Things im grateful for today

1. Went swimming with my mom, sister and cousin at Pryce Hotel. I was so happy and giggling when i hit the water. Ah. I miss swimming. I used to swim every single day way back then in Camiguin Island. Ah those memories.
2. Grateful for Mimai's efficacent oil.
3. I am grateful that after days of being angry i am now slowly healing. Last night i just laugh and laugh at myself and it did me and my soul a whole lot of good. Smile beautiful soul. Thank you. Holy Spirit thank you.
4. Read my gratitude journal again. I miss writing on my notebook. It is so much more personal than what i have here online. So considering the thought of going back to it again than here.
5. I sleep a whole bunch last night. :P hehehe. Sleep can do your soul whole lot of good too. So if you are tired and you cant understand yourself, sometimes you just have to sleep it off.

Cute dogs!

2011-04-04T23:32:00.000-07:00

When you dont really know what to write and where to start writing all you've got to do is to write. Right? So let us begin. My brain is currently processing what subject to post when suddenly my cousin asked me if ive seen the pictures she uploaded, and i said no. For a moment there(a second i think) i was debating with myself whether to check it out or not. My brain concluded that it was better to let myself interrupted. So i did check it out. And Here's what ive found...

That's Mac-mac a.k.a. The King/Father. Aint he handsome?

And this one is Cheke the Mother...

When Cheke had her first pregnancy she got.

Choy-choy The Prince...

Chay-chay the Princess

Chay-chay on the left side, and that's her friend. I dont know her/his name. But she's cute!
And of course Mac-mac and Cheke got Barny but he got lost and was never found again and they also got our very own Ruffy!

Ruffy is on the left side. hehehe just in case u got confused. :p and that is me on the right.
And after just a month or two Checke got pregnant again! wew. Mac-mac is hardworking u know.

That one my dear is Chelsea. The cutest ever! arggghh.

And this one on the sand is Buddy! hehehe.

They have other siblings too but were already given to people who were lucky enough to be promised when Cheke was just pregnant to have it once they came out. yay. And just to let you know right now my cousin has got 7 dogs in their house. hehehe that's a lot!

Things im grateful for today April 5 2011
1. I am grateful that finally i am able to bring back myself to post on my blog. yay.
2. I am grateful that i survived my first day on working on the night shift schedule. yay from 10pm-6 am. Although my manager did caught me sleeping at the last minute! It was during 5:30 am i think. wew. Yours truly was so groggy and sleepy i wasn't able to detect her coming. hahaha but she said it was understandable so it's okay i think.
3.I am grateful that i was able to sleep soundly after my work. So i think i have to go back to sleep now just to be better prepared later. To graveyard shifts! Thank you Father. :p Abba-cakes thank you. So Much.
4. I am ever so grateful that my blog have got new beautiful followers. To Marikoy, Darkratus, Juliet, Angelina zt and Brian thank you. May you increase more in numbers! hehehe

Watercolor week6

2011-03-29T04:57:00.000-07:00

This picture is from the movie "Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea".....

just because i thought i can do something like this! hehehe. I thought wrong. aw. Lets see what i have done so far...

For some reason i find it hard to draw cartoons or anime's than real life subjects. I dont know why. Perhaps because they are so outlined they tend to be bold and unreal. hahaha

For the life of me i cannot bring myself to continue drawing Ponyo anymore. Oh Ponyo im so sorry. I shall return for you, but not now not today and not this week either.

So after letting a day goes by in attempting Ponyo and failed i turned my eyes to this.

"a rose by any other name would smell as sweet..."

yay. isnt that ambitious of me? hahahah. take a look at my take now...

I swear the picture looks so much more better than the original drawing. hehehe. But i think i did really good for my first flower. And its a rose. hahah take that! yay.The rose bud is so complicated i have spent much time studying it. Im loving how red it is! And so the painting continues...

By now i know time is not with me anymore, for it is getting late and i cant see details anymore.

So i have to stop at this point...

I dont know what to say...2 unfinished painting in a week. hehehe. But it is an art of themselves so let it be for now. Yes just letting it be.

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THings im grateful for today March 29 2011

1. I know i have not posted for so many days now. But i have been so busy. I shall post all the pictures for the reason of it this week.

2. Our company anniversary party is finally over. And i am relieved. It was so good being a part of the logistics committee. I now more understand the meaning of this quote: Volunteer not to build your resume but to build yourself.

3. I am being positive for the outcome of my work. and that is achievement enough. hehehe I pray that i will receive positive response from my webmasters. Abba-cakes please intervene for you are the Lord of my work and career. Thank you.

4. Today i am grateful for Evava treating me to Mcdo. A burger, a large fries, an ice cream and a coke. I was so much overwhelmed! I haven't eaten that much for a long time now. hahha i feel a lil guilty. But thank you dai Eva. God bless your generous soul.

5.Downloaded the audio book of The Practice of The Presence of God. I am deeply grateful. Thank you Lord. I know it is you. Listening to it for 2 days now. Abba-cakes thank you. Thank you so much. Never let me go. :D

My Desire

2011-03-23T17:25:00.000-07:00

I know its a little too late but i just want to share what i want to meditate/achieve/sacrifice and do for lent. yay.

First of i want to Practice the Presence of God. I know this is some sort of like a lifetime desire and pursuit but to put it in Brother Lawrence words:

"There is not in the world a kind of life more sweet and delightful, than that of a continual conversation with God. Those only can comprehend it who practice and experience it." ... Brother Lawrence

If you want to learn more about it you can check this site http://www.practicegodspresence.com/ . This site is what i read especially the "reflections" part every time im bored with my work.(Im online 8 hours so i get to open that site daily :p)

And the second one, i got from a buddhism site (who says we cant learn from other religions too?) try to take a look.

"Aware of the suffering caused by unmindful speech and the inability to listen to others,I am committed to cultivating loving speech and deep listening in order to bring joy and happiness to others and relieve others of their suffering.

Knowing that words can create happiness or suffering, I am determined to speak truthfully, with words that inspire self-confidence, joy, and hope. I will not spread news that I do not know to be certain and will not criticize or condemn things of which I am not sure. I will refrain from uttering words that can cause division or discord, or that can cause the family or the community to break. I am determined to make all efforts to reconcile and resolve all conflicts, however small."

I know how powerful words are. And mine is powerful (atleast that's what ive noticed). So instead of using my tongue to lash out hurtful words i will now try to undergo deep changes and try as much to control it and use it properly. I know the tongue has been compared to a rudder in a ship. It gives direction to your life. And it has been compared to fire. Yes it can burn...so deep it can even burn the soul. The tongue is one of the smallest part of the body yet the most uncontrollable of them all. I must with all my power reign it. And let my words bring healing and comfort to any soul that will get a chance to listen to me. I kow this one seems impossible to do but hey my God is the god of the impossibles! I shall now start today and live my life with the two desires i have with the help of Christ my savior .

Celebrate awesomeness that is you. and live your life beautifully!

This Birthday and Beauty Giveaway

2011-03-20T19:50:00.000-07:00

Yay! Im going to join an online contest again for the second time. hahaha i got this one from Cla...weee thanks cla! If you want to join too you can go to this site http://melandriaonline.info .

It says i have to write something about my passion. Well as you can clearly see in my blog, Watercolor painting is my passion. I love painting because i get lost track of time. When im painting i am free and i am at peace. Painting is my safe haven. My sanctuary.

I did this one last week :p

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Watercolor week5

2011-03-19T21:34:00.000-07:00

I know it's a Sunday, and i know it's a little late but still it's week5 for my watercolor project so here it is.

First of, let me show you my model....

let's have a much closer look...hehehehe

Today ive decided to just let anything go. I know im such a critique with my own work and a very mean one. hahaha. so today no judgment just fun.(hmmm let me rephrase that, because, well basically, when im painting i dont feel fun just inner peace.) YES deep peace... This is what i like most when im painting, im not conscious of time and i am at peace.(well at least while im painting) coz after im done its as if i turn into some kind of a monster and criticize my work. Which is really not good and helpful at all. But as Sunny said it is normal for amateur artists to be so strict on themselves weeeeeee at least i get to be called an artist and i dont mind the amateur part, because its true. :p so lets begin.

I know something is really going wrong with this one, hahahaha. Im sort of like short of space already(some kind of underestimated my subject hahaha or wrong perspective but whatever),..hehehe i don't mind at all so the painting continues...

I was finding it hard to find the right shade of green, i keep on adding another color layer after layer. hehehe. And i was lost in time i didn't even bother to take pictures of my progress...and tadang!

Im done! :p i still dont know what colors to mix for the "water" kind of color or for the color of glass either, but im certain in time i will know. hmmm what do you think of my work?

P.S. Ive decided not to copy the red ribbon anymore. and i did not copy the stones excactly, i kind of did my own stones. hehehe.

P.P.S. Ive tried to look at my past art works again and to my surprise they dont look as bad as i thought they were. Change of eyes eh? I feel good with what i have done today, i know its not that spectacular(why am i saying this? im not even aiming for something spectacular. :p ) but i feel good. and that is enough. See you next week!

Got tagged!

2011-03-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

I just got tagged today! yay. And Its my first time. :p Actually two of my blogger friends online tagged me today! So much for first timers. But im excited so lets do the first tag. This one is from yileen.:D

Ruffy :D

1. If you have pets, do you see them as merely animals, or are they members of your family?

Family of course! Mostly we had fishes and dogs over the years. But sadly all of them are gone now. When the last one of our dog died(her name is Ruffy) we decided not to have one anymore. It was just painful for the whole family seeing Ruffy go.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

For a long time now, i only have one dream. And that is for my mom to be happy. To live the good life she desires. For her to enoy. But if i can have one now that would be for me to become an artist! yay. A watercolor painter, an actress and a story teller. And for everyone to find their purpose, passion and meaning in life early on.

3. What is the one thing most hated by you?

Hypocrisy.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

Wow, if that would be possible. First of ill give tithes like 50% tithes and then the remaining 50% would be spent on cleaning our creek and rivers. The water gets really really high here when it rains hard. And when it does we cant really do anything, sometimes you get stranded in some place. I was once. Luckily we were rescued by a ten wheeler truck.(ah but that was special because i was stranded together with friends)

5. What helps to pull you out of a bad mood?

Talking with God all out. hahaha like vent. But after that i say thank you. I breath in, exhale and say thank you.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

I cant really tell. I have not loved someone with all of me, well that is aside from my family and friends. I haven't fallen in love. :p Nobody has yet caught my attention. weeee

7. What is your bedtime routine?

Depends on my work schedule. My body clock system gets to be altered every once in a while. And that is really bad. But most of the time i try to hit my pillow after 10pm.

8. If you are currently in a relationship, how did you meet your partner?

Please see number 6.

9. If you could watch a creative person in the act of the creative process, who would it be?

Myself. hahahah i want to watch me while painting watercolors. am i a creative person? hahha but seriously i want to watch me.

10. What kinds of books do you read?

Inspirational ones. But mostly i love reading funny books. Sophie Kinsella type. Light read.

11. Where do you see yourself in ten years time?

I can't see myself, is that so bad?

12. What’s your fear?

Fear of being afraid. You cant really live your life if you are always afraid.

13. Would you give up all junk food for the rest of your life for the opportunity to visit outer space?

YES! I certainly would gladly gave it up. Besides i don't eat junk foods much :p

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married, but poor?

Can I be married and rich :p hahhaha quesera sera.

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

Debating with myself whether to go back to sleep or not. I tell you this one is a hard fight.

16. If you could change one thing about your spouse/partner what would it be?

Again please see number 6 :p

17. If you could pick a new name for yourself, what would it be?

Can i be Stargirl too?

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that special someone has done?

Forgive i can, but forget will have to take longer than forgive. This thing needs lots and lots of prayer before you can ever get comfortable again with the person. Know what i mean?

19. If you could only eat one thing for the next 6 months, what would it be?

This question is probably the hardest. I get easily "sumhan" with foods. Gah i dont know whats the english translation of that word. But basically it means something like getting easily tired with things. weeeee got it? Variety is important to me. hahaha i cant survive with the same food to eat for six months!

And so the by the power vested in me i now pass on the tag to four amazing bloggers! :p

You are tag!

Cha

Janice

Cla

Sunny

P.S. Because somebody was a little hurt for the reason that she was not tagged. I am now making exception to the rule of tagging only four people. I call on...YOU to be among the four amazing bloggers,

YOU ARE TAG!

Miss EValyn Fabi :P

Kuya Riemar and Ate Queenie's Wedding Part2

2011-03-16T19:41:00.000-07:00

"Happy marriages begin when we marry the ones we love,

and they blossom when we love the ones we marry."

- Tom Mullen

The NewlyWed!

What will follow is a selection of pictures from my Kuya Riemar and Ate Queenie's Wedding! Because i promised you so. Here it is.

Pretty Little Things! :P

The Bride and The Bride's Mom

The Church.

The Officiating Priests!

The Groom and The Groom's Men!

The Bride and The Bride's Maids

Together with The Ring Bearers and The Flower Girls :P

The Enopia Family

Mom and Dad a.k.a The Sponsors!

The Kiss...

hmmmm...

My brother, sister and cousins :D

Dodod, Doty, Mom, Koy-koy, Bodar.

Me and my sister :P

Me and Ate king!

Since yours truly have no part in the wedding. I shall be called The Wedding Cupcake Eater! :P

At the Reception. Pearlmont Hotel. Let the fun part begin!

The Couple

The Cousins!

Me and My Siblings! :P

Wew. After that we had another party. It's called the videoke party! :P

A lot of things to be thankful for!

2011-03-13T18:37:00.000-07:00

I know i have been slacking in my daily gratitude journal and that's not good. But i have been so busy. hahaha.
So okay here are all the things im grateful for for the past few days that i forgot to post.

1. Im so grateful that our tshirt design is finally done! yehey! Here it is.....

This is the design for girls :P

and this one is for the boys :P

This is how it looks like printed on a shirt!

2. I am so grateful that dad has been consistent on driving us my bro and me to our respective destination everyday. yay. Thank you dy! Abba-cakes thank you for my dad! :P I love you.
3. Grateful that ive finished another book! yay! Its called The book About Everyting by Guus Kuijer its a translation of the Dutch children's novel Het boek van alle dingen. Its a beautiful book. Touching and a little funny and super cute. I will post a review soon after i will finish Three Cups of Tea.
4.Bought another book entitled Alice Mcleod Realist at Last. This one is funny in a Sophie Kinsella kind of way but of course sophie is so much more funnier. weeeeeee. Im into book hoarding again. And i just cant resist it. I need help. hahahha
4. Grateful that we SMSI went mangrove planting! yay! I enjoyed having my hands and feet dirty and also i enjoyed planting a lot! I hope what we planted will grow.
5.House Hold in Bro Antony's house. We prayed and shared all our concerns and thanksgiving. It felt good to worship our Lord with my fellow SFC. The Holy Spirit is evident in our household and i am so grateful. Lately i know the devil has been tempting me and i am so grateful that i can now detect his every temptation and every time im tempted especially in thinking bad thoughts i just say "Thank you Father" and the bad thoughts disappears. In every temptation that comes my way i just say "Thank you Father" and i am given strength to overcome it.So i am so grateful for that. I pray for the strength to overcome every temptation. Thank you so much Abba Father! Abba-cakes thank you so much! Thank you so much so so so much!
6.I am grateful for auntie Eva! She helps a lot in cleaning our house. And it just feels so good to come in a house that is clean. Thank you Father for Auntie Eva. :P and little leoncio too.
7.Mom has been doing gardening a lot and i am happy for her. She has this beautiful orchids outside and i adore her love for plants and flowers. I hope we will have a lot of it more! :P
8.I am super grateful that i am now getting my balance on my sleeping issues. I sleep early now and i am so much more healthier than before i think. hahaha. Thank you Lord.
9. I am grateful that my devotion to the Divine Mercy is growing. Jesus has been so good. Reminding me every 3pm to pause and pray. I don't know about this and i never felt like this before but i think i am called to pray this 3oclock prayer. hmmmm. This i think is a powerful devotion against every evil. So thank you Father. My Melchizedek, my highest priest, My Jesus i trust in you.
10. I am thankful and grateful for all my friends who know me and who accept me as i am. And to those especial people whom i can just be myself and feel safe to just be silly and dance and sing without fear of being judged. Thank you Father for every single thing. I celebrate you and i lift your name on high. Thank you so much in Jesus name. Amen. hehehe Abba-cakes thank you. I love you.

Watercolor week4

2011-03-10T10:04:00.000-08:00

Finally had time to paint with my watercolor today. yay! But before that let me tell you about the wanna be watercolor artists in the family(were curious enough to try it so i let them) :P

That's lil bro trying out my water color :P

and this is what he was trying to do :D

Ahahahah impatient much :P

Now it's my mom's turn...

That's what she did. Not bad mom! :P

The wannabe's got bored. So now it is finally The Ultimate Wannabe's turn....yehey!!!!!!!!!!

yay it's night already and im getting mosquito bites!

Let me show you first my model, isnt that leaf adorable? :P heart shape! We've got a lot of those in our house.wew.And if im a scientist i would certainly consider studying it as a medicine for the heart :D Well anyways, I was thinking, i must learn something today. So i decide to point out what i want to achieve. First: To learn how to do something like a shade and shadow with the watercolor and second: To learn how to paint something glossy or smooth. Like that leaf picture above. The leaf has a lot of viens in it. So now i will lett the pictures talk..

I really dont have any idea what im doing right now. That sure looks ugly. It looks like a microscopic version of the leaf hahahaha. It is supposed to be detailed but not that way. The veins are so bold and big which are really not in real life. I was also trying to figure out how i can paint from dark green to green with a smooth transition on it..i found out one way to do it was to dip your brush to the water after painting from a dark color but you have to do it fast because it will dry up immediately. It was hard to do so. Time is of the essence when it comes to watercolor. And the water is uncontrollable. Not unlike if your using a lead pencil, i realized, because with lead pencil you can take your time and its all up to your hand pressure whether to make it light or dark and the transition is not that hard. And i wanted so bad to make it more glossy but i don't know what color to use for that. And i also have no idea what to do so i gave up. I will try it again next time because it's getting late now. So till next week then! :P

Reading one step at a time

2011-03-08T04:07:00.000-08:00

“We can only be said to be alive in those moments

when our hearts are conscious of our treasures”

-Thornton Wilder

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Things im grateful for today March 8 2011

1. Finally done reading Anyway: The Paradoxical Commandments. Actually i finished it two days ago. It is only now that i have posted a review on it :P So my estimate in reading it on two weeks time is perfect. wew. It's a very short read book you can actually finish it on one sitting but you know im a busy lady(weeeeee). So i am grateful today for that book :D
2. I am grateful that i started reading another book entitled Three cups of Tea by Greg Mortinson and David Oliver Relin. This one is a #1 New York Times Bestseller book and 300+ pages long so i will give myself 3 weeks for this. My book for the remaining weeks of March. Sounds fair enough right? Considering my busy schedule. (weeeeeee again)
3. Finally done and over with my t-shirt design for sitecap! yehey! Thank you Lord! yay Abba-cakes thank you so much! So Much! hahhaha. This has been going on for so long and now that it is finally over i am so happy! Not to mention i am also satisfied with my design, it is beautiful so let us celebrate! :P
4. Bought Papaya, oates, nestle milk and nova for snack. yay. Papaya truly is the best solution for idigestion :P Couldnt be more happy than that. But i am much much more happier eating together with my mom and bro for the tinolang isda my bro cooked. wew. The BEST!
5. I am so grateful for our internet connection. Done a lot of things because of it. Yay! Thank you so much Lord God! :P
6. Been such a good girl today. Washed all my undies and tshirts! yay good job to me :P
7. So grateful that Janice and Kira won the online contest. Each for different sites. yay. Everyone's getting lucky huh? Hope it will rub off on me. hahaha. Kira libre jd ni. :P

Anyway - The Paradoxical Commandments

2011-03-08T03:18:00.000-08:00

Anyway: The Paradoxical Commandments: Finding Personal Meaning in a Crazy World is written by Kent M. Keith in 1968. This book is an expanded version based on the "The Paradoxical Commandments," which he wrote when he was 19, a sophomore at Harvard College.

The Paradoxical Commandments

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.
People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.

Favorite Quotes: (Everything written on it is worth quoting :))
My Take:
The book talks about finding meaning in a crazy world. I was amazed by how much Keith has learned from all his experience in life even at a young age and much more in awe of how he applied it. While i was reading this book i cannot wait to share it to all of you. I was thinking like "oh-my-this-is-a-gem! a one of a kind gem". This is something worth reading. I know for sure you will learn and get something really really important that you can apply in your life from this book. I agree with him that life is not about working for yourself or your family but it is about finding meaning on what you are working for. This book reminds me much of James Allen's As a Man Thinketh where every written word on it has substance and meaning. A very inspirational short read book .
Ratings: 10/10 ; highly recommended!

Health and Fitness

2011-03-05T07:37:00.000-08:00

“Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without.”

-Buddha

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Things im grateful for today March 5, 2011

1. Our health and fitness program is back! yey! For today we had a seminar on Stress Management. It was lead by Julie Ang. We did something yoga like. Yes breathing exercise! :P She said she's from The Art of Living(nice name huh?) So let me tell you about it. She said there are 5 different kinds of breathing or was it 4? Im sorry about that, I never thought there are so many kinds of breathing. Well anyways she taught us the hmm she mentioned the name but i forgot what it was. Well again, it goes something like this. Alternate breathing style. First you have to sit in a lotus position(just like in the pix above). You cover your right nose with your thumb and inhale with your left then when you exhale shift the cover and exhale with your right and then vice versa to achieve one cycle(you got that right?).But this is difficult to do when your nose is congested. :P Mine was at that time- maybe this is the reason why... It is suppose to make you more enthusiastic and alive and ready-to-conquer-the-world mode but sad to say it got a different effect on me. I felt so sleepy after the exercise! And then after that we had our badminton. I was sweating all over! yikes! hehehe but i was super glad i was sweating.
2. Went home then slept the entire afternoon and had my snack upon waking up. This is the good life.
3. Little lionceo. Yes i am super glad for litte lionceo. Our new happiness in the house.

Isnt he adorable?

4. Watched Pilipinas Got Talent. I am super impressed by our pinoy talents! The best in the whole wide world. :P Thank you LOrd.
5.Downloaded a pdf copy of Eve's Diary by Mark Twain. Thanks God for 4shared.com. I shall read it today. yay! And there is also Adam's Diary wow interesting. I shall gossip with eve first, Adam later. Contact me if you want a free pdf copy. :P
5. Did a self portrait. Im starting a new project but i still cant show it yet. It is based on a book entitled The New Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain. This is super exciting and interesting.

Live and spend your dash joyfully

2011-03-03T05:39:00.000-08:00

I was thinking what to post and then i saw this, i have to re-post.

There was a man who stood to speak at the funeral of a friend. He read the dates on her tombstone from the beginning…to the end.
He noted first came the date of her birth and spoke the following date with tears, but he said what mattered most of all was the dash between those years.
For that dash stands for all the time that she spent alive on earth…and only those who loved her know what that little line is worth.
It matters not, how much we own; the cars….the house…the cash.
What matters is how we live and love and how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard…are there things you’d like to change? For you never know how much time is left that can still be re-arranged
If we would just slow down enough to consider what’s true and real and always try to understand the way that others feel. We’d be much less quick to anger and show appreciation more and love the people in our lives like we’ve never loved before.
So, when your eulogy’s being read and your life is being rehashed…would you be proud of the things they say about how you spent your dash? re post from share.sayan.ee

Ah if people will only learn to remember every single day that life is numbered...we will be much much more happier than we are now. :P

Sanay pag-ibig nalang ang isipin ng bawat isa sa mundo...

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Things im grateful for today March 3 2011

1. I am grateful for my dad driving me to the office. Thank you Lord. Thank you so much! :P

2. Grateful for Janice and Evava and Sheila for today for no particular reason. :P

3. I am grateful that i remembered my usb. Thank you doray :P

4.I have now a couple of followers and im so happy. THank you so much to all of you my dear online friends. May you grow more in numbers! :P

5.I am grateful for my eyes! I can now see more clearly! Thank you Lord.

6. Abba-cakes i walk down our house and then it hit me. We have been so blessed by you. I am so much overwhelmed by your generosity. Thank you Lord. Thank you so much. My Melchizedek, my highest priest, it is all because of you. Thank you so much for every single thing! Thank you. I praise and i worship you. Thank you so much!

WaterColor week3

2011-03-02T05:24:00.000-08:00

For this week I've tried drawing faces...

ahaha I know He is terrible. But look at his lips! Do people have lips like that? gah! The skin color and tone is a disaster! I dont know how to make it smooth. hmmm I have to practice more. :P But hey look

To my great surprise, he kind of look like the picture in the book, i did not really intend it to be so! Dont you think? hehehe i think this guy is gay. :P
I run out of papers to paint so i bought a new drawing book today for 25 pesos(actually i kind of gotten confuse with their pricing coz the other one says it's 29, so you know which of the two i choose.). Well anyways the faces continues...

and again her skin color looks terrible. arghhhh. I need a whole lot of practice for this! I have no idea which colors to mix to have a skin type of color. For that i mix brown and orange. I think i need to experiment on these things, mixing colors. Anyways, do you have any idea who that girl is? Take a closer look please...

...and look at all her moles...Got it?

O yes i was trying to copy me! hahahha But oh my she is definitely not me. No no no. She looks like a teacher and I look so much younger than her! But i love her eyes nonetheless. Gah it is so hard to copy portraits especially of oneself! Did you know that i was looking at a mirror the whole time while i was painting? That explains why the moles are on a different side of my face. Gah not a good idea. It didnt came out like me. Not a single bit! Maybe i should try to take picture of myself first then do the drawing afterward.

That is mom taking a pic of me that's why im so tickled because she was making funny suggestions on how i should pose! Here's a better one i think...

But please just dont mind my pimple!. So that's it for this week! Till next week then!
oh P.S. i somehow forgot to draw and include my ears! :P

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Things im grateful for today March 2, 2011

1.Today is my Lola's birthday. Happy birthday lola.

2. I am grateful that i bought a new drawing book for my water color painting.

3. Bought a book entitled Memoirs of a Geisha on impulse. Its only 90 pesos so i have to buy it! It's a good buy right? Gah im into book hoarding again.

4. Brought some jobee home. 2 B1's. yey my mom and little bro was happy and so was little loncio.

I will take pictures of little loncio tomorrow because He is so adorable!

5.Drop my overdue tithes at the Nazareno church. Thank you for everything Lord God.

6.Ill try to be early to bed today. Goodnight! :P

Lola's Birthday

2011-03-01T19:09:00.000-08:00

Grandmother-grandchild relationships are simple.

Grandmas are short on criticism and long on love.

~Author Unknown

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So today is my Lola's birthday. And since it's her birthday i would like to talk something about her here.
note: Me and my sister and even my brother grew up with my lola and my other two cousins too.

When i was still growing up in Camiguin as a kid every time im sick i prefer to be with my Lola's care. Yes i do. And i tell you its not easy because my Lola lives in the other side of the island probably 14 kilometers away. I dont choose what time, night or day as long as im sick, i would have to be in my Lola's arms and i cry every time if my wish aren't granted. My mom would lovingly send me away.

Growing up with my Grandma means "hulid-hulid". Smile. That means a lot of cuddle and hugging and kissing. Whenever your around she would just say "Ali hulid-hulid ta" :P aw. My heart is melting right now remembering those old days.

I don't usually say this but my Lola is very eloquent. My Papa Allan used to ask her advice on what to say during election time. She's a School principal and every time she's asked to have a speech she just blow me away. Im so proud of her. And not to mention that her english is very very good. I wish i kind of inherited that from her but alas not a single iota!

I learned to pray the rosary from her. Yes, and all the novenas! Every 6pm we are not allowed to go out anymore. We start to pray the Angelus and then the rosary. I used to memorized the Litany of the Blessed Virgin Mary and all the Mysteries when i was young. Even the Memorarie and the Hail Holy Queen. We pray every single day way back then!

My Lola likes to pamper us! We dont do house chores much. We cousins were like little senoritas and senoritos. We have snacks every morning and afternoon. We used to share every single food we have no matter how small way back then with my cousins. "Sharing is loving" probably would be our motto.

My Lola and I like to have plants in our garden. We love gardening! She used to say that i have a green thumb! I dont know if i still have it now. My cousins and I used to water her plants every morning except when raining.

She exercises every single day! Twirling her knees and hips around. And she's so cute when she does that. My Lola doesn't like to sit around doing nothing.

She borrows money from us cousins and pay properly. Unlike my mom and dad.

She reads a lot of readers digest! I can remember reading a lot of it too. You know she has a subscription. And monthly it is sent to us.And i get excited every month. My lola is a wide reader.

She loves to tell us stories! My Grandma is a story teller. She tells stories every time we go to bed. She even read the whole bible stories with us, in comic style that is!

Everyone in our province calls her Ma'am Pesing! Her name is Simplicia. :P She's complicated.

Attends every single meeting we had in school. I now appreciate her more for that. Because my mom and dad don't.

She's very Spanish in her ways. You know deeply religious and a little bit of a status-quo-matters-to-me type of person.

I remembered being scolded because i was listening with girls older than me and laughing with them talking nasty and nonsense things. She said it makes me vulgar. I did not do it again. So i guess i grow up being quiet after that.

She would always "templa" us chocolate(tablia) every breakfast. Breakfast is not a breakfast without it.

She is very generous with all of us her apo. You know she has a lot of money. :P

That is just some of my Lola's tidbits. I love my Lola(even though there are a lot of things i wish she did not do that caused me a lot of pain) but i guess that is just life and i have already forgiven her, not that she's asking for forgiveness. And most of the things that comprises me is her. I am who i am today because of her. Im still trying to unlearn a lot of things though. But some of the things i love about her will remain.

To my dearest Lola whom i love to hug and kiss Happy Birthday and I love you! (i forgot how old are u now) Thank you so much for everything. May God bless you and let you see the day when everyone of your child will be reunited again. I love you Lola and that has always been my prayer when im reminded of you.

The Greatest

2011-03-01T06:36:00.000-08:00

The most satisfying work ... Helping Others
The most endangered species ... Dedicated Leaders
The greatest natural resource ... Our Youth
The greatest shot in the arm ... Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome ... Fear
The most effective sleeping pill ... Peace of Mind
The most crippling failure disease ... Excuses
The most powerful force in life ... Love
The worlds most incredible computer ... The Brain
The worst thing to be without ... Hope
The most powerful relationship tool ... The Tongue
The two most power-filled words ... "I Can"
The most powerful communication ... Prayer
The greatest asset ... Faith
The most worthless emotion ... Self-pity
The most prized possession ... Self-esteem
The most contagious spirit ... Enthusiasm
The most beautiful attire ... SMILE

-Anonymous

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Things im grateful for today March 1 2011

1. Feb is finally over. I love Feb but I am welcoming March with open arms! yay Happy March 1 everyone.
2. Tomorrow is my Lola's b-day. Im excited. Thank you Lord for my Lola.
3.Got to help somebody in need today. Although i was a little late but better late than never you know.
4. Singing praise songs with Janice and Sheila in the office. Rocking high with our voices even though im down with flu. But getting better and better as the day goes by. So thank you so much!
5. I am grateful for daddy driving me to my work today.
6. I have to stick with my promises and fight the good fight today and forevermore. Help me Abba-cakes.

Fiest of Sr. St. Nino

2011-02-28T06:30:00.000-08:00

My long been overdue pictures of St. Nino's fiesta in Balingasag.

Lots and lots of people came to gather and celebrate.

And they even have with them a replica of their own little Ninos too!

This is what the outside of the Balingasag church looks like. You can see a lot of balloon vendors and kids like it so much...there's spidey and dora in there too.

and this is what is on the inside

The mass has ended and so we decided to follow the procession...

a lot of them are really serious.

but sometimes you just cant help but smile when you see things like this. Baby dogie! How much are you?

but after a while we were soon lost! Ahaha seriously! i cant believe we were lost!

I know im no photographer so I took lots and lots of pictures along the way! :P

Yay that's a lot ha! :P

Things im grateful for today

1. Im grateful that im feeling better and better. Im finally healing. Thank you Lord.

2. I dared myself today. And im not sure what will be the outcome of it but i lift them all to you Lord. Ikaw na bahala.

3.Grateful for Dodod and Dexter. They bought some Jackfruit of the finest kind. yay! THank you Father. It seems like the long family war is finally ending. Prayers heard. Thank You Father.

4. Grateful for Henelia and Maria Clara. That was fun fun fun. People are getting affected by the t.v. series. Salute to the actors and actresses! I was laughing so hard i need to thank God for making me that happy. THank you Lord. Abba-cakes thank you so much!

5. Reading a new book entitled Anyway- The Prdoxical Commandments. Its a very short book so im hoping i could finish this one in 1 week. yay!

6. Burlesque soundtrack on the background. Gonna sleep soon. Thank you Father. Thank you so much. I am grateful you are my God! Thank you Lord. My Melchezidek thank you! :P

7.Karenika replying to my comments on her blog. yay i was so touched by what she said. Thank you karenika. keep inspiring! THank you Lord for Karenika. :P

Some things save your day

2011-02-25T23:34:00.000-08:00

A day without a laugh is a wasted day

-Charles Chaplin

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Okay so i have been rumbling talking about negative stuffs lately..Its now time to turn the tide and lets talk about things that made me happy today...yey!

1. Im grateful that i watched happy yipee yehey. Made me laugh my i-feel-so-good-laugh. Oh my thank you Father for Milai. ahahha wouldnt you know it one moment im so down now im up and laughing!
2. So grateful for the good weather today. Abba-cakes thank you. I know i made you down and sometimes i know i act a little bit too much..ehehe im sorry if ive been a drama queen. but nonetheless you like listening to me so what to do? :P

3. Im so grateful for charice! yay. Ive watched her Concert in Japan videos via youtube. Smile smile smile. Im so happy for Charice. Did you know that she won the J-Wave's Tokio Hot 100 Award for Best New Artist on February 24 in Japan, beating popular international artists like Ke$ha, Orianthi, Bruno Mars and Justin Bieber? Wow way to go Charice! keep on inspiring others and keep on doing what you do best! I love you! :P Go chasters!
4. So grateful for daddy. He bought us cashew nuts! that is his fave! yehey!
5. Im on my way...getting better and better. THank you Father for not letting me go.
6.So grateful also for Prescilla and John Estrada. ahhahha Love love love. Thank you Lord.

Confusion

2011-02-25T16:12:00.000-08:00

I have not posted my daily gratitude in two days now. I have been harassed, confuse and sick at the same time. Gah i really dont know what is going on with myself anymore. I have no control. It freaks me out. Confusion is staring at me squarely. God i need help so bad. And a lot of prayers. I hate it when i cant understand myself. Im so empty right now and at the same time full of shit..oops sorry. But today is an early morning and i have always believed that mornings are wonderful gift of God. A new sheet of paper where you can just forget all the yesterdays mistakes! I am in the kitchen right now and mom is cooking, auntie Eva cleaning and dad just gotten out of the comfort room fresh after a bath. The weather is really good and i can hear a lot of chicken shouting their usual tiktilaok. I am here sitting and typing. I dont like it when im sick. Somehow there is some notion in me that when you are sick your soul is sick also. Gah talk about perfection and holiness. Im so tired already. I just want God to hold and comfort me now. To not say anything but hold me. I want Him to cleanse and purify me. To let me know that it is alright. Yes that everything is all right. That somehow ill come out of this, whatever it is, renewed. It is my desire to please God and when you cant do that it does something with your soul. You get depressed and ugly. I dont want to be ugly. :P I want to be beautiful and radiant. The kind of beauty where God resides. Dah i know that is impossible to reach. But what do you know? God can make everything possible. And me? i somehow believe in the impossible. This has been going on for a week now and i hope tomorrow ill get better. And if you are confuse what in the heavens i am talking about in here, that is basically my problem dear. Confusion without identifiable reason or a lot of reasons its hard to name them all. But for now my family is in the dining room eating and talking already and everything is just normal...I will join them now.

And by the way if somehow you know what this is thing called about...you can share your thoughts and tell me how to get cured.

Little Altars Everywhere

2011-02-23T19:21:00.000-08:00

Little Altars Everywhere is a national best-seller, a companion to Rebecca Wells' celebrated novel Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood. Originally published in 1992, Little Altars introduces Sidda, Vivi, the rest of the spirited Walker clan, and the indomitable Ya-Yas.

"We are swinging high flying way up, higher than in real life.And when I look down, I see all the ordinary stuff — our brick house, the porch the tool shed, the oil drum barbecue pit, the clothesline, the chinaberry tree. But they are all lit up from inside so their everyday selves have holy sparks in them, and if only people could see those sparks, they'd go and kneel in front of them and pray and just feel good. Somehow the whole world looks like little altars everywhere."

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"You can't go anywhere with Mama without things getting nuts. If it's going along too smooth she will invent something just to stir things up. Sometimes we'll be downtown shopping and everything's going normal, and Mama will put her fingers in her mouth and let out the loudest, most piercing whistle you ever heard in your life. Then everyone gets startled and drops what they're doing and looks around to see where the noise came from. And Mama, she'll just bend over and pretend to be looking at a pair of shoes."

Favorite Quotes:
"Sometimes you just have to reach out and grab what you want, even when they tell you not to. This is something that I've struggled with my whole life long."

"Listen to me, Siddalee, and listen good: There is no excuse to let your looks go, no matter how poor you are. Cleanliness is next to Godliness, but honey let me tell you, ugliness will get you nowhere."

"It’s life. You don’t figure it out. You just climb up on the beast and ride."

My Take:

Reading Little Altars Everywhere is fun fun fun! It kind of gets so sad sometimes i have to stop. This book is about Sidda and all the Walker family including the Ya-Ya's told in alternating voices . I like how i can just relate to it. Even though the book is set in Louisiana it felt like the Walker family is my second door neighbor family when i was still growing up in Camiguin Island. A lot of fighting and shouting but in the end you can see how much everyone loves everyone. There are so many "aw" moments in there for me. Sometimes i am so much touched i felt like crying. But a lot of times you cannot help but laugh. Crazy crazy people. The book is wonderfully told and it is written in easy simple English which i like.

Ratings: 8/10

Speed Reading

2011-02-23T06:36:00.001-08:00

A writer only begins a book. A reader finishes it.

~ Samuel Johnson

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Yay im finally done with my book Little Altars Everywhere by Rebecca Wells. It took me two months to read it! I keep putting it off. So now its officially over. yehey! How in the world did a 200+ pages book took me so long to finish it? Got to do something about it. Yes, Speed Reading! Oh no im at it again. I had an audio for that a 10 Minute CD by Paul Scheele. I downloaded it a long time ago. I have to listen to it again today. Felt the need to. So here's a rough draft from what i have learned from it.

Double Your Reading Speed in 10 Minutes

1. Physical Posture- sit properly with your feet on the ground. Extend your spine and put a gentle smile on the corners of your lips and eyes.(i love this part, the smile thing)
2.Mental Posture- set your mind for success. Look for meaning in what you read. Or set your mind whatever you want to achieve in reading the book.
3.Visualization- its about the tangerine thing. Touching it and feeling it. Imagining the tangerine floating just above and at the back of your head. I dont know about this but it is supposed to widen your visuals. :P
4. Reading Technique- you dont have to read the book word for word. Just learn to glide your eyes over the words. Look for phrases and sentences. Look for meaning. (This one needs a lot of practicing for your eyes and brain to adjust)

My reading skills did improved after doing it. But its a kind of thing where you really have to practice it so as not to go back to your old ways. Because in my case i had done it before but forgot to put it into practice so im back to zero. Got to remember to do it every time i read something. Or if your like me i just want to remember to sit properly every time there is something needs reading or when im with the computer or when im just plain sitting.

Things Im grateful for today Feb 23, 2011
1. Done reading Little Altars Everywhere(i learned something from it and there are so many "Aw" moments for me in it). Im so glad. Thank you Lord.
2. My heart is not feeling so happy today and i dont know why. But i am still glad i get to live life. ehehe Caught myself praying Lord make me happy today.
3. Mom cooking for us. It's dinugoan! Thank you Lord for my mom.
4. Having time to write the things im grateful for today.
5. Almost followed my schedule i made for today(i kind of slept through the other parts). But hey! Almost-its an accomplishment already. So.
6. Downloading Burlesque soundtrack now. :P Happy.
7.Watching Maria Aragon on The Ellen Degeneress Show. Such an inspiration. Oh if only i can sing like her and play the piano too. Gaga went gaga over her. But im Born This Way and I am intent on rejoicing and loving myself today and forevermore because i am born this way and beautiful in my own way too coz God makes no mistakes(i want to sing now). A born superstar! Still need to find my place though.

Bound to You

2011-02-22T06:59:00.000-08:00

By: Christina Aguilera

Sweet love, sweet love
Trapped in your love
I've opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust

Free me, free us

You're all I need when I'm holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to you

So much, so young
I've faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I'm strong and I'm sure there's a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure

I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I brace myself, please don't tear this apart

I found a man I can trust

And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can't you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to

Suddenly the moment's here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all
Come this far just to fall, fall

Oh, I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
And finally found my way
I am bound to you

I am,
Ooh, I am
I'm bound to you

note: I dont know but when Christina sang this one on Burlesque i felt what the song was meant about. Her eyes then was so beautiful and soulful and her voice was beautiful. She became music. I love this song because somehow i can relate myself to it and i dont understand why.

WaterColor week2

2011-02-21T06:29:00.000-08:00

The flow of water and paint can be uncontrollable and crazy,

but it is also freedom, an escape, therapy, joy, and, oh yes, very sensuous!

-Angela Lynch

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Yes Im still at it. :P

take a closer look...

I got bored so decided to have a model...

my first take...

details are so painful to draw...i dont know what im thinking here ...
take a look at my second take...

ahahah i know that's too small... but i love how my pot has improved so much in here. weeee
okay here's a closer look...

that little trunks it has intertwining with each other is so hard to copy so as with the leaves. I have to start with the basic i guess so i can really track my progress and will be able to paint that properly but i have to find books or a site or perhaps someone to teach me all the basics ...hmmm and also for now all my paintings are real i mean i cannot get myself to draw from my imagination so i think i have to be content with that yet...i dont mind copying also...so that's it..next week again.

note: This would be my daily gratitude. Today im grateful for this. :P
and for my new header(it is so much better now i think :)

Ate Queenie and Riemar's Wedding

2011-02-19T15:54:00.000-08:00

" Love starts with a smile"

Things Im grateful for Feb 19 2011

1. Attended my cousin's wedding Queenie and Riemar. I cried when i saw her get off the car and started walking the Church aisle . I dont know what it is about wedding that makes me cry. I guess it's the separation part. The thought of your loved ones not at home anymore. You know spending lazy hours together and watching tv or just plain laying in bed and talking for hours and hours or eating meals together as family. My mom said she cried when Daddy Sam kissed ate Queenie. Aw. Wedding indeed is a joyful celebration of love and union and also of freedom, of independence and of letting go. It's a new and beautiful chapter of one's life.
2.During the mass I asked God what is love and to teach me how to love(i haven't fallen inlove so i thought he could teach me a thing or two). And did you know i got an answer immediately. This is what He said in a flash. "Love starts with a smile." Aw. I think God must have been smiling down on all of us in heaven above for he has continued to love us till now. So love starts with a smile. hmmmm i will for certain use that tool. ahaha.(When i see you smile lugar) Thank you Lord. How sweet of you to answer me. :P
3.So grateful and happy taking pictures with my siblings and cousins! They're got a booth for taking pictures in the wedding reception held at Pearlmont called snapinabox and we surely did not miss the opportunity to have ourselves taken! This one thing i realized Filipinos love, love to take pictures of themselves!
4. Daryl passing the Nursing Board Exam! Yehey. I was so happy i cried again this day! Now we have two nurses in the family...wow! Thank you Lord for letting Daryl pass the board exam. Thank you so much!
5. Went to The Avenue for the after wedding party. Got ourselves Cali and coke and french fries and Calamares while all the rest were having Red Horse and Tanduay Ice. wew My sister was laughing after looking at the difference ahahaha.
6. Im so grateful for Mommy and Daddy for driving us cousins in the after wedding party.

My Yellow Header

2011-02-18T07:21:00.000-08:00

before

After :P

Yay! Look at that! So i really wanted so badly to have something yellow on my blog. :P My first header kind of makes me sad(i dont pretty much like dry colors) so i decided to do something with it but please dont ask me how much time i spent just to figure how to do that one out. You know a lot of people may not like yellow but hey it perks me up. Yellow makes me happy and alive so here it is my header with something yellow! yes i did it! i did it hurray! :) IM SO GRATEFUL! yes time well spent! Today February 18 2011 im just grateful for one thing and that is my blog. ahahah i did not do any other thing today but face the computer and work on my blog. So pretty much of my whole day was spent online. :P

Just in case you want to know just how i did that thing up there, well, i used my paint application program. Pretty simple huh? Im using Windows 7 Ultimate so the program is so much better than the outdated ones. Its kind of like the Photoshop but much simple and easier to use. Did you know that i just used one tool just to do that? Amazing huh? Yes and that's the filler tool. :P

Walking in Gratitude- Me at 23

2011-02-17T05:33:00.000-08:00

"Open your mouth with thanksgiving and your heart will be filled with gratitude"

-Sheena Senara

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I will be flooding pictures. Me at 23. Feb 5 2011 :P


waking up on my b-day. got a kiss from my bro.

me and sis

my lil bro(with a hat on) and my cousins!

the little ones want jobee than pizza :P

these two are my happiness :P

my sweetest lil bro.

yea right?

aw sweet

sister and daddy

yes my dad approves me drinking :P

Things Im grateful for today Feb 17 2011

1. Im grateful that work is stress free today. Thank you Lord.
2. Im so feeling good with myself today so that is one thing to be grateful about.
3. I woke up today and all i can say was thank you Father(i practice to always say that before anything else. Open your mouth with thanksgiving and your heart will be filled with gratitude, try it!). Smiling all through out while doing my routine. Brushing my teeth first then taking a bath. I was still saying thank you Father. Thank you Father for my heart is filled with so much gratitude. I am grateful you are so good to all of us your children. Thank you.
4.Slept so well last night. First time in a long time. yay! I hope i will have a better sleep later at night
5.The music in the jeep this morning sets my mood just perfect for today.
6.Finally find time to post my birthday pics

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Things Im grateful for Feb 16 2011
1. I have been so consistently good in cleaning my(and my sister's) room. So that's good.
Thank you Lord for giving me the strength to keep my 2 promises. :P I love u.
2. Joined a contest. :P That's my first time to join a contest online so im excited and happy. Hope to win.
3.Yes heard the birds singing very early in the morning. Aw..they are more like talking than singing i think.
Note:I was busy joining an online contest last night and i want to sleep early so that's why.

My Personality Test - Sensitive Doer

2011-02-16T16:43:00.000-08:00

Okay so LJ and Cha took the personality test on www.ipersonic.com interesting! LJ is an Engaged Idealist while Cha is a Social Realists well me? Im a Sensitive Doer. :P Interesting!
Here is what a Sensitve Doer is like:

Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and heir regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive.

Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules. Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly.

Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.

Adjectives which describe your type: introverted, practical, emotional, spontaneous, sensitive, peace-loving, reserved, gentle, good-natured, independent, empathetic, friendly, playful, carefree, sympathetic, relaxed, quiet, modest, pleasure-loving, loyal, obliging, caring, helpful, optimistic

Note: A lot of these things resonates with me and some of them are "me" on the past. I think i am on a stretch "not here almost there" - I cant believe i am now somewhere in between. Ahahaha.

Sensitive Doer: Career

Your type, although belonging to the introverted doers, is also the most amiable and friendly in his dealings with others of all types. This special combination is the reason for your great flexibility. It enables you to work excellently and contently on your own to suit any situation, but also achieve extraordinary popularity and professional satisfaction as a member of a team. Here the precondition is a friendly, collegiate environment characterized by harmony and mutual respect.

You need a working environment without intrigue or political manipulation, and with the least possible deployment of elbows. Cooperation rather than confrontation, should be the order of the day. Colleagues as well as superiors equally appreciate your unassuming, congenial nature and your unbelievable sensitivity plus your attentive and generous ways toward others. In your presence, people simply have to be comfortable; you are not competition oriented, whatsoever.

You are almost limitlessly tolerant and always prepared to accept others as they are. As a consequence, you very rarely have problems getting along with different people. The only exception: when your private value system is hurt or you notice injustice somewhere. In that case, you can react quite forcefully but even in the most heated dispute you always try to argue respectfully and fairly.

Therefore it is very important that your work is compatible with your (high) values and ideals. In the long term, it is not satisfactory to just do any job with the sole objective of finding money in your account at the end of the month. You need the feeling of being able to totally identify yourself with your job, and to fully support whatever it is that you do every day. Ideally, your usually more practically- than theoretically-oriented activity provides you with tangible results. Then you can walk home at night feeling that you made the world just a little bit better than it had been in the morning - preferably for another human being.

Another important element is your wish to grow through your activities and to learn something new every day. You want to be challenged not just in your professional capacity, but also as an entire human being. Appreciation by others is not entirely unimportant to you. In spite of all your mental independence, you appreciate receiving positive feedback. Therefore, make sure that your work environment provides regular feedback that will continuously acknowledge your qualities. If these conditions are met, you will be a perfectly loyal and usually above-average engaged collaborator who is totally dedicated to his job and often able to deliver spectacular performances.

Note: A lot of them are really true for me especially the "you are not competition oriented, whatsoever."

Sensitive Doer: Love

Due to your quiet nature, you don’t fall in love head over heels - but once you do, it happens intensively and fiercely. You have a pronounced romantic disposition and once you truly catch the bug, you insist on putting your beloved in the center of your universe. Like the Idealists, you are an all or nothing type, in this respect. Despite your love of freedom, you are the most faithful and devoted of all the Doers.

You are capable of deep feelings, and you throw yourself into a relationship with all you’ve got. You care for, spoil, and support your partner wherever you can - sometimes even at the cost of your own needs. You are devoted to doing everything for your beloved to the point that you may not realize for a long time that you are getting the short end of the stick. If you feel that you can do him/her a favor, you gladly deep-six everything that is important to you: friends, place of residence, or job. As long as you choose a partner who appreciates this trait, and most importantly, who does not take advantage of it, it is just great. It gets extremely dangerous, however, if you end up with an egoist. In dealing with your contemporaries, you are sometimes a little too trusting because you always assume the same high morals and character trends that are yours. In certain ways, that makes you very vulnerable and that applies to love, as well.

Your pronounced sensitivity (also a part of your personality type description) makes you a very attentive, empathetic, and loving partner. You won‘t miss a mood change in your heart of hearts, and have a damned sensitive ear for hidden appeals. You like it that way because excessive love pledges are not your style, and you don’t continuously carry your heart on your sleeve. You prefer to demonstrate how much your partner means to you with deeds, and by reading his/her wish in his/her eyes.

Note: Scary hahaha but i am indeed the "all or nothing type" when it comes to love.

Ipod Touch and Tilted Tees on Tilteed.com

2011-02-16T05:19:00.000-08:00

Hey hey hey! Exciting things going on tilteed.com. If you want to win 8GB IPod Touch & two Tilteed Tees come and join the contest! :P

And now for my entry i picked this one design as my favorite tilted tee. Tsadang!

cutest thing don't you think?

yay! that's a STOP OR MY WHALE WILL SHOOT tee. Amusingly ridiculous by its name alone :)
This three colors on a silver American Apparel tilteed shirt is designed by Jublin. He said the design was inspired from playing around with the idea of a killer whale pun and thinking about boys in blue cops. I wonder what he was doing that time, just look at how it turned out! With Art T-Shirts you can certainly let your imagination go swimming the vast ocean of possibilities...

I like this tee because when i first saw it i thought "this one right here is so gentle" the colors and the feel of it struck me as gentleness not until i clicked and saw clearly the image...

that little cop hat right there is worth a million! not to mention the look on his face!

I need not say more, but with a chuckle and a smile on my face-I love this crazy tee!

Just The Right Balance

2011-02-15T07:51:00.000-08:00

Just The Right Balance

I can be as crazy as a dog and refined as a lady

I can be loud as a gun and quiet as a grave

I can be so sensitive and I can be so detached

But never in between.

Oh im finding it hard to find the right balance.

I can be so rude and be so kind

I can tell you things straight to your face

I can also tell at your back

But never in between

Oh im finding it hard to find the right balance.

I can either lie or not lie

It's hard to act the white lies in between

If sometimes i am brutally honest with you

Dont get hurt for it's never been my business to inflict pain.

Im just finding it hard to find the right balance

-Sheena on being straightforward. (Ur not so eloquent girl.) :P

Things Im grateful for today February 15 2011

1. I'm grateful that i learned so much more about myself today. It's really hard to find the right balance in everything. I just want to be spontaneous

2.Today im grateful for LJ. I was all gloomy this morning and wasnt really feeling well. Im glad that LJ was able to save my almost wasted day. ahaha we were both laughing while going home. Crazy old man in awe of her beauty. weeee Im just thankful another beauty appeared to save us from our dilemma. :P Dangerous situation turned comedy. Nothing's better than that. :P

3. Painting with my water colors again. Got to take some photos and upload them soon.

4. Grateful that i was able to fulfill my promise today. Wow. Thank you Lord. ILUVU.
5. Im grateful that i did really well with all my house chores. :P Way to go baby.

My Diosito Mio I LOVE YOU!

2011-02-14T19:18:00.000-08:00

Come live in my heart, and pay no rent.

-Samuel Lover

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I want to say out loud that i love you too.

Happy Valentines Abba-cakes! Abba Father I love you! Thank you so much for being faithful no matter how many times i had betrayed you. I'm sorry. Thank you for Loving me in ways i never imagined possible, i never thought im worth that much. Thank you Father for saying again and again how much you love me. I am in awe of your love for me. In awe of how much you care for me. Thank you so much for proving time and time again how you will never leave me. Thank you for your loyalty. Your love is unconditional it is beyond compare. How can i learn to hate others then who have hurt me when your loving me like the way you do. Yet even then i learned to hate. I'm sorry. How can i learn to judge others when amidst all my shortcomings and deceitfulness you never did leave. Yet even then i learned to judge. Im sorry. Im sorry for many times i have witness your great love for me yet i wasn't changed. Hard hearted me. Im sorry Father. How can a soul who knows how much it has been loved yet still not be moved by it. Im sorry. Know my heart today and search me. Clean me and purify me. Set me aside for you alone Abba Father and let me be a beautiful aroma to you. Every single day forgive and renew me for in that way i will be able to give my only gift to you. To praise and to thank you and to celebrate you. I love you Father. Thank you so much! Thank you, thank you, thank you.. I am glad you are my God.

Things I'm grateful for today Feb 14 2011

1. Im grateful that today is Lovely's birthday.
2. Im grateful that im so busy writing love notes for my office mates and receiving a lot of them also.


I love this pic coz i have no idea janice was taking it.

Aren't those beautiful?

3. Sweet Love, young love, innocent love, childish love, unconditional love. For all Love forms today. I am definitely grateful! Happy Valentines everyone!

People may say i am loveless but i have always been in love :P

That's Shirley Temple! and That's Janice behind :P

Gardenia Pizza. yay!

Photos courtesy of Janice and Chariss :P

4. I am grateful that i celebrated Valentines Day with my office mates at Moon's Cafe. They have a lot of menus yet we ended up ordering pizza again! yay! I had just eaten pizza last night for my sister's birthday and then today pizza nanaman! Nice. We got ourselves shirley temple for the drinks and it was phenomenal! ehee I love it. In fact we all love it. This food trip seems to never end.
5.Finally got myself an ice cream! Been craving for it for how many days now. ahahaha.
6. My cousin laughing over Crazy little thing called love. Oh Mario Maurer you are so handsome.
7. Hearing these words from the yaya of Mara and Clara: "Sa huli ikaw din ang may hawak ng iyong buhay, huwag mong ecompromiso ang iyong kaligayahan basi sa ini-isip ng iba" These words are precious. I think if you can live your life with this saying you will definitely be happy. Yes i will not try to look at myself in the eyes of my boss - regardless of what or how he/she thinks about me(that will be the end of me). yay thats from personality development training seminar. I have a lot of things to say about this but i will not expand. I am in no position to. I still have to think things through and through. :P

Water Color

2011-02-12T06:24:00.000-08:00

Ive long been planning about it. And talking about it here in my blog. And today i finally gotten to start my water color painting. Here are some pictures of what i did back then(this was when i watched every child is special movie-i was totally inspired to paint) I know it's not that good but its okay im still learning and just beginning so...a lot of them look pretty childish.

yes its not that obvious i love trees! :P This kind of work and strokes need a lot of improvements! yay.

And this is what i did today for Feb 12 2011. The branches are somewhat off and the trunk was not even in the ground! ahahaha a floating tree it is. weeee Not bad though for day 1.

yes that's my new brush. I got it from Gaisano Mall School Supplies section for Php 30+

and of course dont tell me you think i easily paint something like that without some guidance. Yes that's youtube :P

You can take a look at a lot of tutorials online but this particular video is from someone callled takanart. The hard part was that there is no step by step process in the video not even a sound! It would have been easier if she kind of talk and tell what she's doing and even nicer if she can show what colors she used. So what i did was just observed and kind of tried to figure out what colors to use.
So that's it for now. Ive read somewhere that when it comes to water color you have to go for quantity over quality. I think that is so true. You have to try and try and keep practicing until you get your desired output.So what do you think?

Things Im grateful for today February 13 2011

1. Im grateful that daddy took time to hatod(unsai english sa hatod ahaha) me in the office.
2. I'm grateful that i took the Personality Development Seminar. I learned a lot but there is some points in there that i really dont find agreeable. So for now i will just focus with the kindness and the gossip thing. I certainly have to learn those things! :P
3. Im grateful that i went to the Alumni Gathering (1927-2010). I went around and took a look at the new building. I cannot seem to find my classmates so i just went home after a few minutes. Its kind of raining anyway.
4. Listening to Joni Mitchell's Both Sides Now.
5. Im grateful that tomorrow is my sister's birthday. yay!

Learn from your mistakes

2011-02-11T08:34:00.000-08:00

Gratitude is our most direct line to God and the angels.
If we take the time, no matter how crazy and troubled we feel,
we can find something to be thankful for.
The more we seek gratitude,
the more reason the angels will give us for gratitude and joy to exist in our lives.

~ Terry Lynn Taylor

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Things Im grateful for today Feb 11, 2011

1. I'm grateful that i learned a new thing today. I learned to be humble by admitting my mistakes. Well i hate making mistakes. And i learned to pray really hard for God to give me acceptance in my heart for what i have done and for things that had happened and i also ask for forgiveness for taking it much seriously than i have to. I'm sorry Father but my heart really do aches(rejection aches a lot and disapproval too). Thank you for understanding, and if it still hurts and it does still please have some compassion and right what has been wrong. I will not stop calling for you until my heart will be at peace. Be always with me for you are my joy.
2. Even though work was tough today and im much bothered by the QA thing(ive been a collector once and i know how it feels) and with all the wrongs i have done. Im grateful for Sheila for praying for me and taking time to counsel and me and give some advices. It sounds like a big problem huh? ehehe its not really but my heart is heavy and i dont like it much when my heart feels like burning.
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Why do i pose like this? :P

Sexy! Just keep on smiling like that chang!

unsa gani tawag ana? blazer ba? ehehe :P

note: photos are taken from Chariss tumblr.

3. Im grateful for Chang2 that she invited me to go to ketkai with her. I learned something from her on how to classify dresses and what are their names and where to find their names(its on the tag). I also had fun with her trying all the dresses we felt beautiful to wear. :P I love to pose when chang2 is taking my pix. We were laughing in the dressing room like we have no care in the whole wide world. I love it when i dont really care much with what others think. Yes i do love moments like this. Thank you Chang for listening with all my dramas. ehehe dont take me seriously for im a drama queen!(note i do want that black and white dress chang tiguman sa nako to eheh)

My sister's note

4. Went home and when i enter my room look what i saw! This one really made me smile! :P Yeah thats how easy she can withdraw money. :P We have got a lot of post like this in our room!

We post reminders....

and this one...yea thats me writing to my sister ahaha

we use it too to organize our things!

Me and my sister love post it notes! And we post it anywhere in our room to leave messages! yay!

5. Done making a card for Donna(i hope she will like it). Thank you chang for making suggestions! Lets do art together next time okay?
5. Im grateful that my mom's powerpoint presentation is finally done and now i can go to sleep. What a day it is! Thank you Lord. So. Much. Iluvyo.Imsory.Plsforgiveme.ThankU.

Teakwood Hills

2011-02-10T18:15:00.000-08:00

Teakwood Hills

And so we went to Teakwood Hills!yay my mom has been talking a lot about it lately so finally today my parents decided to just go and take a look(luckily for me, i was just in time to catch them so i tag along). Its 10 or more kilometers from the city proper so its not that far. Teakwood Hills is owned and developed by A Brown Company the same people behind Xavier States. (naunhan na jud ta ni Brown da) The place was really breathtaking, similar to Echo Village well at least in the surrounding beauty it beholds. You will have the vast ocean and the city in view. It felt like you are so close to the heavens already. They also have a function hall(the terrace part was designed like a ship it was really pretty nice(titanic effect)) or soemthing like that with a big swimming pool with it. It was emotionally beautiful but the thing is i don't like much the road going there. Its very narrow and steep like 45 degrees! I hope they will do something about that. And also you cant go there if you dont have a car. (Dli pwede mgsikad. ehhehhe) So it's a place for millionaires(daghan na keu lugar para sa ato ba?). I was really glad i went along with my mom and dad including my 2 brothers. The only thing i regret is not bringing our digital camera with us! If you want to know more visit their site here.

Things I'm grateful for today Feb 10 2011

1. Im super glad and happy i went along for a short ride to teakwood hills. Little adventure doesnt hurt ayt?
2. Im thankful that i get to help mommy with her powerpoint presentation. A little more to go.
3. Bought a paint brush at last! Thank you Lord. :)

4. Im grateful for Charice! No other, i mean no other(at least for now) celebrities can inspire me the way Charice does. I love everything about her! Im a certified chaster since college. :P And i watched her performance last night in 2011 Woman’s Day Red Dress Awards & Campbell’s AdDress Your Heart at Jazz at Lincoln Center New York City via youtube over and over again! She performed a medley of Witney Houston songs and Gloria Gaynor - I Will Survive. Her performance was breath taking even though ive already watched her sing the same songs over and over again. She just keeps on getting better and better after every performance and that is what i like about her the most aside from she's real funny and childish sometimes. Thank you Lantao Islands for covering Charice's performance. You are a certified chaster and i wish i can be as rich as you to follow Charice everywhere she goes and get a chance to take a video on her every performance. Charice you are a little ball of fire. Keep burning! i mean shining.
5. Laughing so hard with my mom! She calls the cursor as pitik-pitik. waaaaaaaaa.
Mommy: Gang unsaon d i pg move aning pitik-pitik?
Me:Laughing out load and rolling on the floor after realizing what pitik-pitik was.

An Eye For Color

2011-02-09T19:29:00.000-08:00

A hundred times a day I remind myself
that my inner and outer life depends
on the labors of other men,
living and dead,
and that I must exert myself in order
to give in the measure as I have received
and am still receiving.
—ALBERT EINSTEIN

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Things im grateful for today February 9 2011

1. Im grateful for the early salary release. Yay!
2. Im grateful i listened with my intuition to go to ketkai (i freaked out when someone asked me if im going to Agora) i thought oh boy this one surely is dangerous. I have to get out of here now. So im so glad. Thank you Lord for your protection.

An Eye for Color

3. Im grateful for my new book. I got it from National Bookstore on a discount i mean a super discount(from Php 1000 to Php 100)that's a good buy dont you think? Its entitled An Eye for Color by Olga Gutierrez de la Rosa. Im excited to read it, well its not a novel but a book full of pictures i mean an art book. It's my first time to buy an art book. I bought a paint brush along with it but its not that good quality so i guess i have to buy another one and if my budget would allow id like to buy a new sketch pad for im planning to start my water color daily art plan..ehhehe nice. hope this will start soon.
4 Finally got to watch Tangled! Yay.
5. I have watched Italian Job also. Two movies in one day eh? Charlize Theron has got one seductive smile there. She's beautiful really.
6. Get to finally start my mom's power point presentation. Ive been dragging it for so long I guess i have to get it over and done with na.

Enjoying God's blessing

2011-02-08T19:23:00.000-08:00

I believe life is like an Eat-All-You-Can Buffet.

God has placed us in the middle of a Buffet of Blessings.

But I now realize that there are people who are allergic to God’s blessings.

- Bo Sanchez

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This is a post much related to the post of Bo Sanchez. Ive long been dying to talk about this but somehow im finding it hard to explain in the right way(much more write about it)

So lets talk about enjoying God's blessing. :) yay! Nice isnt it?
How does mornings sound to you? Do you feel God's mercy being renewed? If it feels like everyday is a new day to you then that my friend is God's wonderful blessing! Let us count that as 1- a reason to celebrate life.
Now when you walk out your house and see all the trees dancing. Please look closely, does it feels like God is enjoying the breezes and touching the trees? Sometimes God plays and its adorable isnt it? Well lets count that as 2 then. Now when you look at people and feel like smiling for some reason or none at all whatever then that my friend is a gift not known to many. Celebrate then for life is humor. Now when your with your family and friends, does it feels like your playing and jumping from one clouds to another? Or perhaps content and happy? or if your like me you opt to make them laugh and smile by your silly antics just because you can? Or you can just give it all and go crazy all the way. It feels good right? We now have 4 reasons my friend to celebrate life and enjoy God's blessings! Now when you look at yourself and notice your eyes - its beautiful isnt it? Look closely please because there are times your soul appears in your eyes in the form of a smile. Rejoice and celebrate for life is beautiful and God wants you to be happy with all the things he has given you. We now have 5 reasons to count to celebrate life and be joyful. And that is more than enough.

A treat

2011-02-07T13:44:00.000-08:00

Things im grateful for today Februray 7 2011

1. Im grateful that im feeling fine and well today. Abba dear thank you so much! How sweet it is to be with you.

2. Today i learned that God wants us to be happy in life and to enjoy all that he has given us. Yes we do have a fun and loving Father. yay Abba-cakes. :)

3. I was reading my gratitude journal(the one i have in notebook) because i miss writing in it. Ive realized that it is much more personalize compared to my online gratitude journal. Because with this medium i am much more incline to think that there are people who will be reading this(so called audience). With my gratitude journal(notebook) on the other hand there is only one audience and that is God. A lot of my inmost thoughts are written in it. And when you really think and look at it, it is so much more of a love letter to God. Yes a love letter with numbers and arrows. I was taken aback and was so much touched by how private it is. I dont know but it makes me want to go back to my old ways of expressing gratitude.

4. Me having that urge to learn watercolor painting. I have always been fascinated with this medium of painting. Maybe i should try to paint with it daily so that i will learn how. Oh the happiness i get when doing it is priceless.

5. Me getting a treat from Eva. yay! So eva was feeling hungry today after work(that's what you get when you skip breakfast and lunch) She was like im feeling hungry and im like yay that's great!(with the expression on my face and my eyes shining my hair dancing and my face glowing- inshort excited ko kai kabalo q manlibre ka) And we have ourselves chicken fillet!(as if im not yet full from lunch). We talk and talk and talk and then it started raining. Oh im a little bit cold. We decided we need ice cream. Great. Sundae chocolate ice cream it is! :) we get back from talking again. We talked about her boyfriend(i was feeling so sad about it) and then we talked about our SFC sisters(i was really glad we talked about them for i was laughing so hard- Dabdaban is the word my friend). I am really grateful for moments like these with eva. She's so fun to be with and she can easily cope up with me.(i am glad that the things i find really funny she finds it funny too) although the dabdaban thing is not really funny at all when you get to really think about it(sakit bya evava ba?) but the way sis janet describe it is unbelievably funny! ahaha(detailed na keu na evs ha. just the way you want it)

6.My mom is finally home! yahooo! I miss how my mom smells. :) I love to smell and kiss my mom(that's one thing you have to know from me) and i love all her salins too!

7. Me and my brother went shopping in Gaisano for his long sleeve but we ended up buying nothing. Today ive realized that my brother has so much more taste than me when it comes to dresses. yay thats bad. Nonetheless i enjoyed shopping with him. THank you Lord that i decided to go with my brother, couldnt have done much better with my time.

8. Sleeping the entire afternoon again(trending na jd xia nga activity nako weeeeee)

9. fladhlhfgaakdghalhg. meaning i love you much. THank you. ehehe Abba dear i love ypu much. Thank you for loving me in ways i cannot imagine i deserve to be loved that way.

Sleep

2011-02-06T06:28:00.000-08:00

"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful,

but the gratefulness that makes us happy"

-Albert Clarke

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Things I'm grateful for today Feb 6 2011

1. Im grateful for ate king2. Life is easy when im with her.
2. Im grateful that i did my laundry. yay! Im proud of myself. :)
3. Had a sleep this afternoon.(im afraid this is going consistent for 1 week now)
4. Went to mass. :) Blessed sunday it is.
5. This is my first day in my 23 years of living life. SMile! :)

My Birthday

2011-02-05T07:48:00.000-08:00

"Mao kini ang adlaw nga gihimo sa Ginoo

magsadya kita ug magmaya."

-Psalm 118:24

Today February 5 2011, i want to say thank you to all those people who have in some ways touched my heart. This is not a eulogy ha. :)

To my dady thank you for loving me. I am so much overwhelm by your love for all of us your children. Thank you dy for waking up so early just so i can have coffee or breakfast before i go to the office. And thank you for washing all the dishes everynight for me when i feel tired or just plain lazy to do it. You understand me so much and you make allowances for all my mistakes. You may not say it but ding i know you love me(i love u too). Thank you. I thank God you are my father.

To my mommy thank you. Thank you so much. You are the reason why i work hard. You are the reason why i do my best back in college, the reason why I always want to graduate. Mommy you may not know it but it is because of you and for you that i have a dream. Thank you. I am in awe of you. In awe of how brave you are.Thank you my, i love you and in my life I wish only your happiness.

To Doty(thank you for sharing in my responsibilites and for doing almost all of them :), Koy2(kuya im proud of you. Everyday you are getting better and better) and Abong(baby ikaw jd ang measure sa akong patience- ayaw keu pabadlong okay? Even though labad keu ka. I love and accept you ). Thank you. I celebrate all of you. I am so proud i am your ate.

To Lovely thank you so much. You may not know to what extent you have touched my life but love let me tell you this - it is because of you that i know in my heart that God is good. You have been my teacher in life's many lessons(maygani ng classmate ta). You are a reflection of God's goodness and kindness. I thank God i have a friend like you. You have taught me a thing or two about money too(nga dli jd nako malimtan) ehehe. Thank you so much love.

To my seven dwarfs thank you. Life would be so empty without all of you. Thank you so much.

To my sitecap family thank you. Everyday with all of you is happiness. Thank you much. :)

And lastly and above all. To my dearest Father in heaven, my Diosito mio, my Abba-cakes, my sweet and gentle God. Thank you so much for making me happy everysingle day. How sweet it is to be in your presence. YOu always make papansin. You make me smile. Bother me always okay? I love you. Thank you for everything.

So okay. Since it's my birthday today. I want a gift from you. YEs you.
I want you to state all the things you are grateful for in your life right now(in the comment box bellow). Be generous in your answers ha. I want to know too what are the things you are grateful of. Thank you. :)

Thank you smile

2011-02-05T07:06:00.000-08:00

Things im grateful for today(my birthday) Feb 5 2011

1. Got a call from Mommy and she said I love you. ehehe. aw.
2. Also i got a birthday call from Ave. Thank you Lord for ave. She never forgets.
3. I am grateful that Ate king2 came over just to be with us from Balingasag.
4. Chocolate gift from Ate King2. :)
5.Sleep and had a rest.
6. Thank you Lord for the strength to stay focus with what i really want for myself.
7. I am so grateful for all my cousins who came over to celebrate my birthday.
8. For my daddy who went with us in ketkai.
9. My cousins eating Jobee.
10. Singing Karaoke so loud in our house. ahaha(xenxia na kai nakainom)
11. Thank you Lord for another year. I hope to strenghten my relationship with you. ehehe help me.
12.For all the facebook greetings! weeeeeeee napura jd ko ug thank you sa ila tanan. Yes i did say thank you to every single one who greeted me! :)
13. I am so much grateful for Chachuchang. For the beautiful gift she gave. Thank you chang for the vid. I was really touched. ehehe ng effort jd ka. THank you Lord for chang2.
14. Abba-cakes thank you for talking to me. Thank you for the gift of your presence. I love you. Im sorry if sometimes im too hard headed/hearted. Be patient with me always. :) Thank you.

22 things i learned in life

2011-02-04T07:29:00.000-08:00

For my last day of being 22, here are the things i learned.

1. That God is gentle.
2.After my first salary i learned that money is not everything.
3.It is okay to go crazy sometimes.
4. I learned that you appreciate people more if you like yourself more.
5. That being grateful makes you beautiful.
6. There are a lot of good things than bad to see in other people if you try to choose and look more for it.
7. That it is okay to ask for help.
8. That it is okay to ask.
9.That to truly love others is to accept in them that which you cannot change.
10. That peace is acceptance.
11.I learned to be patient with my progress.
12. That your day will always turn alright if the first thing you utter in the morning you wake up is "Thank you Lord"
13. That coffee is good for the soul.
14. I learned that it is okay to let go and not try so hard.
15. That it is okay to be sought after.
16. To guard your heart and mind because it consist your life.
17. To not dwell so much on my mistakes.
18 I learned to confess and run to God immediately everytime i sin. And to not let it trouble me anymore.
19. That every morning you are given the grace of forgiveness. To start with a clean sheet of paper. So write and draw your day beautifully.
20. I learned that it is okay to enjoy your salary(the fruit of your labor). It is a gift from God.
21.I learned to express gratitude.
22. That it is always good to find and do things you enjoy.

The day before my birthday

2011-02-04T07:00:00.000-08:00

Things I'm grateful for today Feb 4 2011

1. I am grateful for my dad. Gipabaunan q niya ug kamote! waaaaaa. sweet au q daddy oi. Thank you Lord for my father.
2. Me and Janice busy commenting and posting on our own blogs! :) Happiness! Thank you jan nalingaw jd q nimo.
3. I am grateful for kenny helping me with my work. Thank you Lord for kenny.
4. Work has been so smooth again. Thank you so much Abba-cakes! yay.
5.Doty cleaning our room. Sistah thank you. You are d best!
6. I eat a lot today. yay. Congrats to me.
7. And because today is friday and tomorrow is my birthday i feel so blessed and happy.
8. Completely healed from my stomach ache. Thank you Lord that i am healthy.
9. For your mercy is renewed every morning of every single day.Thank you Abba dear. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. :) Smile. Smile. Smile.
10. Last day of being 22. yay. Thank you Lord for granting me another year to celebrate life.

My Sweet, Crushed Angel

2011-02-03T18:25:00.000-08:00

You have not danced so badly, my dear

Trying to hold hands with the Beautiful One.

You have waltzed with great style,
My sweet, crushed angel,
To have ever neared God's Heart at all.

Our Partner is notoriously difficult to follow,
And even His best musicians are not always easy
To hear.

So what if the music has stopped for a while.

So what
If the price of admission to the Divine
Is out of reach tonight.

So what, my dear,
If you do not have the ante to gamble for Real Love.

The mind and body are famous
For holding the heart ransom,
But Hafiz knows the Beloved's eternal habits.

Have patience,
For He will not be able to resist your longing
For long.

You have not danced so badly, my dear,
Trying to kiss the Beautiful One.

You have actually waltzed with tremendous style,
O my sweet,
Oh my sweet, crushed angel.

-Hafiz

I was going through something unexplainable in my life when this one came to me. I felt like crying the moment i read this one. I was let loose that day. Oh, the feeling of letting go and knowing it's okay to not try so hard. Thank you Hafiz.

The Invitation

2011-02-03T17:52:00.000-08:00

It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.

It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.

-by Oriah

This is simply beautiful. Freedom. Is. Beautiful. May you live your life free. To choose always to be you. To dance and sing and laugh and breath with gratitude shining in your eyes and your face glowing with love and appreciation for life simply is beautiful. -

Our Deepest Fear

2011-02-03T17:35:00.000-08:00

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant,

gorgeous,talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are we not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking

so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone.
And as we let our light shine,

we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fears,

our presence automatically liberates others.

– Marianne Williamson

I read this poem from time to time just to remind me of how awesome God created me to be. Im still finding it hard to believe though. So for now i will just read and read for me to believe. And i shall wait until the day will come that i will become what i believe.

Roses

2011-02-03T04:14:00.000-08:00

I can no other answer make, but, thanks, and thanks.

~William Shakespeare

Things I'm grateful for today Feb 3 2011

1. Okay, just so i can get this over and done with. I know a lot of you will be looking here.(After all, sometimes i wonder if transferring my gratitude journal online is a such good idea.) So here we go. Today I'm grateful for the flowers i received from Mark(weeee). I did not know he is that serious(for my dear, he was trembling all over when he gave it to me) oh its okay really- i don't bite. :) I just don't know what to make of it. I was flattered and worried (ahaha i did not know i was that frightening for someone to really be scared). So thank you once again for the early b-day gift and the super advance valentine gift rolled into one. That gesture would be an addition to all the teasing going around. But as what i have always said i cannot give something in return ): but thank you anyways.
2. I love February. Surprises is just around the corner. But please, Abba-cakes make the sun come out na.
3. My brother cooking dinner for us. And me washing the dishes.
4. I'm grateful for my dad. He can be so cute sometimes makes me wanna smile that OMG-im-so-happy-smile.
5. My work has been so smooth i cannot complain. So thank you. Abba dear thank you for loving me in a thousand and thousand ways.
6. And oh how can i forget the shining star of my blog? Thank you so much Eva dear for reminding me always to log in and out of fingerprint based cancelable biometric system :)

Email me

2011-02-02T06:24:00.000-08:00

"No duty is more urgent than that of returning thanks."

~ Unknown

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Things I'm grateful for today Feb 2 2011

1. I am truly grateful that the MIS guys has finally done something worthwhile for us. :) And that is the online tracker for our Biometrics accounts. It is where you get to see your log in's and out's. Isn't that splendid? Oh they couldn't have done something better than that! Thank you Lord. Abba-cakes let's party! For remembering time will not be a problem anymore. Thank you so much Father dear!!!! This for me is happiness! click happiness here: http://biometrics/bioets/?userid=76&fl
2. And because im super happy and glad I figured why not send them a thank you note? So i go on and said my piece not realizing that it will be sent out to all SMSI personnel.Ehehhe good job Sheen. Wanna feel like a CEO?
2. A lot of funny and you-can-make-me-angry emails coming. weeeee I'm grateful for Eva and Janice taking time to review my responses. You know sometimes i can be so impulsive and naughty. So webmasters better be nice. :)
3. I washed the plates and Doty's uniform. I'm proud of myself. Thank you Lord.
4. I slept the entire afternoon again. weeeeeeee
5. Been treating my face with honey for two days now. This is just an experiment but it's super fun. I use my finger to apply it on my face very gently and then after its all been covered my finger just went right through into my mouth! Ew. But you know i couldn't help it. And then i go and move around and after a while i can feel my tongue sticking out wiping my lips and every part of my face it can reach. Ew again. . ahahah My face is just so sweet, every part of my body is dying to taste it. So much for pampering my self.
6. Today i feel good and that is something to celebrate about. Smile. Smile. Smile.
7. I am truly grateful for my dad. He cooks for us every single day. Aw. Dading thank you so much. Thank you Lord for my father.
8. Me and daddy drinking coffee. Sweet.

9. Lovely posting a scene from Smallville in facebook. Memories came rushing back. That video my dear is my favorite way back in high school and unto college! ahaha I cannot just get over how handsome Clark Kent can be in a white t-shirt(dadto ngsugod ahaha). And that big smile he has after the end of the vid is something worth dying for.

Love month is here

2011-02-01T06:53:00.000-08:00

You are beautiful.

You are special.

You are precious.

You are lovable.

All this, simply because you are.

Simply because God says so.

Believe it.

Walk in the knowledge of it.

Conduct yourself appropriately.

-Michelle Mckinney Hammond

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Things im grateful for today Feb 1 2011

1. I am grateful for today. Yes today is February 1 2011. yey my favorite month of the year. Great great great!
2. I am grateful for cute-cute. She's so funny and irresistibly cute! ahaha when im with her i feel like a little kid. It is always good to go crazy when cute-cute's around. But I just don't like it much when she starts to get green..ehehe
3. So okay chang-chang mentioned to be grateful that i have to learn the lesson of bringing my umbrella every single day because there is a 99% possibility of getting wet. Yes Rain, pour it all over me sweet love. But in this case i have to remember to remember. gets? no? doesnt matter.
4. Slept the entire afternoon. So much for planning my day. Well at least i get to rest. And i am grateful for that.
5.Truly grateful to be reading about a book "What To Do Until Love Finds You" (my sis bought it) weee i never intend to read this kind of books but its kinda intriguing so chikahan nato gamay(perfect for love month ayt?). It talks about actively waiting for your mate's arrival. In most cases i agree about everything the author(Michelle Mckinney Hammond)said. It's kind of like, this is what i thought also. Nice. But im still in chapter 5 so lets see what will happen next. There are so many interesting topics in the book so i cannot wait to finish it. For now let me leave you with this: First we have to be submerged in the Holy Spirit, and the fruit of the Spirit has to be operating fully in our lives thus creating the sweet-smelling aroma in the nostrils of God(Ah, the smell of it!) And our outward countenance should radiate with holiness. Ah.

Pretty little thing

2011-01-31T06:53:00.000-08:00

Everything depended on God but any accomplishment would need my cooperation.

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Things I'm grateful for today January 31 2011

1.Today I'm grateful for Sheila. I eat breakfast and lunch with her everyday and i learn a lot from her every time we talk. You know she always has opinion on things. :)
3. And so today is dedicated to all those people who likes to be mentioned on my blog. Especially Eva. ahaha i didn't know you like it much when i write about you. :p so here you go. Thank you so much Evs for making extra effort to be a little much more nicer to me just so i can mention you here. I am truly grateful for you. I love how we just look at each other and then burst out laughing. You know sometimes(not all the time ha) you can read me like a book. This is also for Chachuchang, I am truly grateful for you chang because every time i look at you everything is a little much more better. :) Yes the world is a little much more better with you in it. Thank you chang. I dont know if LJ wants to be mentioned in here also but okay let us include her. ehehe. Today i am grateful for LJ because she's so girly. ahhaha She loves teasing me and i dont know why. So i get to smile when im with her.(paganaganahan lang jd q ani nila duha chang2)
4. I am grateful for my new white shoes. Pretty little thing on my feet! I was laughing this morning because i was getting late and i was running with it (my 3 inches white shiny shoes) what a site to see (see? i love my work that much site na jud dli na sight).
5. I am grateful for the payong boy who escorted me when i walked down the jeepney to our house. Wew i haven't noticed i was smiling all along. You know hes got such huge huge umbrella(the kind of thing you bring for picnics). I feel like a queen(Agora Queen that is).
6. Watched Life as we know it. I'm not really impressed with it. The story is simple and plain. Nothing extraordinary. But its a good thing that Katherine Heigl is such a pleasing sight to look at and Josh Duhamel is a lil bit cute so all in all its not that bad. One thing i noticed though. It is indeed true that foreign movies, especially the western ones has some bad habit. Characters have to make out first before they will truly know each other.
7. I am grateful for Doty. Otingkay thank you for washing my clothes. You are the best!
8. Abba-cakes im sorry sometimes i don't think much of you. Other things takes priority. Thank you for choosing to stay no matter how dirty i am. Thank you.
9. Beautiful music in a cold and rainy night. What can you ask for? God has given us every little thing that makes life beautiful.
10. Ooopss i almost forgot to thank glaiza for all her movie downloads. Thank you glaize. Id like to watch Tangled soon. Thank you for the copy. My brothers enjoyed watching it kanina.

SFC House Hold

2011-01-30T18:50:00.000-08:00

“You do not need to know what the good Lord is doing in you; you are too little.”

-St. Therese of Lisieux

Things Im grateful for today January 29 2011

1. Im grateful that i went to our household. I have been harassed the moment i woke up.. evil and lustful thoughts playing on my mind. I was wondering why am i so harassed like this..then i remembered today we will have our household. It is indeed true that if you are getting closer to God the evil will find a way to snatch you away. This is the battle you have to win. So i have to remind myself what i have learned from my past experiences. I don't know if you all agree with this but this is what i believe in.

Written from my gratitude journal dated Nov. 15 2010 entitled"When you have sinned there are important things you must remember."

      1. That the goal of the devil is not really that you will do something that will caused you to sin. It is just his way to make you think you are separated from God. It is in a way 50:50 so when you have fallen to sin never feel and think you are separated from God because no one can ever separate you from the love of God through Jesus Christ our Lord.
      2. You are still you! The child of the Living God. It is not God who changed but you. Your way of thingking.
      3. That the Holy Spirit grieves within you when you have sinned.

I have learned to be gentle with myself and be patient with my progress. Now i am trying to trust so much more in God's forgiveness and gentleness than in the heaviness of my sins. To run like a child to his lap every time i fall and i fall a lot. (And in moments like these I wish only to remember the gentleness of God) Yes my God is a gentle God. That is the first thing i know about Him. That no matter how powerful and all seeing He is He can be so little, yes he can be so little just for me. My dear little God(Diosito Mio). This is the side of God i treasure and give thanks always.That the God who created the entire universe stoop down so low just for me.

2. I am grateful i went to mass with my SFC family. The funny and awkward part was, i was sited with the choir group and was sandwiched between two ladies who has powerful vocal chords. I was like okay take it easy sheen...you can do a lip sync.
3. Went to Sis. Nilda's house, with Sis Janet, Joelyn and Michelle and we talked a lot! Most especially about Marriage, boys, boyfriends and sex! wew. I cannot believe how open and honest they are. Now i don't feel insecure and awkward anymore. I always feel like i will burn in hell when im with Sis Janet because shes so holy. Now i know she can be human too. I laugh and laugh while talking to them. Especially with Sis Joelyn. Oh she can be so innocent sometimes!

Shopping/ukay

2011-01-29T17:46:00.000-08:00

” Let us be grateful to people who make us happy;

they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.

-Marcel Proust.

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Things I'm grateful for today January 29 2011

1. I woke up and then saw all our pictures in facebook posted by kenny! I am ever grateful for Kenny taking time to post it. And tagging all of us. That takes a lot of hard work and patience.Thank you so much ken.
2.I am ever so grateful to have washed all my undies.. Weeee I'm so proud of myself. Go go go!
3. Went shopping with my sister in Divisoria(night cafe) for shoes to wear on Ate Queenie's wedding. My sister has such big feet it wont fit on anything we try into. Luckily for me all the shoes there are for my feet. Feeling like Cinderella huh? :)
4. After feeling so tired and sleepy from walking back and forth we had ourselves some Chicken Joy, Spaghetti, ham burger and sundae ice cream. Nice. Thank you Lord. :) And then we started talking a lot just about everything. Especially how God has been so kind to us. We felt so blessed! Abba-cakes thank you.
5. By some special magic we stopped and looked inside Footprints. And then my sister saw it. Yes. It was a love at first sight thing. Mission accomplished.

Crazy me

2011-01-28T05:30:00.000-08:00

“Learn everything you can, anytime you can, from anyone you can-

there will always come a time when you will be grateful you did.”

-Sarah Caldwell

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 28 2011

1. I'm grateful for my sister Dorothy. I have the best sister ever! I get the license to wake her up so early in the morning just so she can comb and blow dry my hair. I even go too far by asking her to iron my clothes. :) I love you Doray. Thank you so much for understanding me. I know sometimes i hurt u by saying things i really dont mean. I'm sorry for that. Know that i love you and that (in my life your my ihi - kasi hindi kita matiis.).
2. I'm grateful for my new pair of shoes! It's color white. wow i have too many already.. I haven't even wore the shoes my mom bought for me.
3. I am grateful for our meeting today. Though it was really sad because Donna wont be with us but still im happy for her. Changes are good right?(in God's beautiful time). People do come and go. But they leave something behind. So make the most of your time with your friends and family. Let them know how much they are appreciated and loved by you.
4. Shocks Abba-cakes! This is the 3rd pizza for January! ahahaha i told you there's got to be a third time and this is it! I know you always make surprises like that for me and you always let me know that it is you who caused it to be so. I love you dearly Father. Thank you for loving me so gently. I'm sorry if a lot of times i don't do things that im suppose to do(lazy bones). Just be patient with me okay? Mold me and use me. Be with me. Always.

5. Went crazy with the wig! OMG so this is how it feels to have a smooth and silky hair. You suddenly turn into a lady gaga! I love how it feels to just go and be myself. Today i am free and i love it. Abba-cakes thank you. Chang2 mentioned your name kanina...I know your happy. ehehe oieeeee.
6. Im so grateful for Janice(i so love teasing u) and Chang2(ur the cutest chang!) the two brightens my day.
7. Had an ice cream treat from evava! Thank you Evs! ehehe i love you. weeeeeeee.
8. I am grateful for Kenny being patient with me even though i know shes a lil bit pissed because for the second time i forgot to log out again! Abba please don't allow any third time please? Remind me always...
9. Today i am ever so grateful because i get to force myself to write my daily gratitude stuff. As you can see i dont have an entry for January 26-27. Weee I know what i did on the 27th. I kind of sleep the entire day after arriving from work. And as for what i did on the 26th, i cant remember a thing.
10. Today I am grateful because you are my God and my creator. I celebrate myself and i praise you because i am fearfully and wonderfully made. Thank you Father.

To Kill a Mocking Bird

2011-01-26T02:26:00.000-08:00

A Timeless Classic of Growing Up and the Human Dignity that Unites Us All

A novel set in a small town in fictional Maycomb County, Alabama, 1933-35; written in the 1950s, published in 1960. By Harper Lee.

Mrs. Dubose was a morphine addict" said Atticus."She took it as a pain-killer for years. The doctor put her on it. She'd have spent the rest of her life on it and died without so much agony, but she was too contrary--"

"Sir?" said Jem.

Atticus said "Just before your escapade she called me to make her will. Dr. Reynolds told her she had only a few months left.. Her business affairs were in perfect order but she said, There's still one thing out of order."

"What was that?" Jem was perplexed.

"She said she was going to leave this world beholding to nothing and nobody". Jem, when you're sick as she was, its alright to take anything to make it easier, but it wasn't alright for her. She said she meant to break herself of it before she died, and that's what she did."

Jem said, "You mean that's what her fits were?"

"Yes that's what they were. Most of the time you were reading to her i doubt if she heard a word you said. Her whole mind and body were so concentrated on that alarm clock. If you hadn't fallen into her hands, I'd have made you go read to her anyway. It may have been some distraction. There was another reason--"

"Did she die free?"asked Jem.

"As the mountain air," said Atticus. "She was conscious to the last almost. Conscious, he smiled, "and cantankerous. She still disapprove heartily on my doings, and said id probably spend the rest of my life bailing you out of jail. She had Jessie fix you this box--"

Atticus reached down and picked up the candy box. Inside surrounded by wads of damp cotton, was a white, waxy, perfect camellia. It was a Snow-on-the-Mountain.

Jem's eyes merely popped out of his head. "Old hell-devil, old hell-devil!" he screamed, flinging it down. "Why cant she leave me alone?"

In a flash Attius was up and standing over him. Jem buried his face in Atticus's shirt front. "Sh-h" he said. "I think that was her way of telling you- everything's alright now, Jem, everything's all right. You know, she was a great lady."

"A lady?"Jem raised his head. His face was scarlet.

"After all those things she said about you, a lady?"

"She was. She had her own views about things, a lot different from mine, maybe...son, I told you that if you hadn't lost your head id have made you go read to her. I wanted you to see something about her- I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. Its when you know your licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what. You rarely win, but sometimes you do. Mrs. Dubose won, all ninety-eight pounds of her. According to her views, she died beholden to nothing and nobody. She was the bravest person i ever knew." xxx

To Kill a Mocking Bird by Harper Lee is one of my All Time Favorite Book. You know when they'd asked what book changed your life? I have none(maybe the Bible). But this book would come close as to have made an impact on me. It widen my views on things and made me open my mind to understand people a whole lot better. You know when Atticus said that,"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view-until you climb into his skin and walk around in it." I love every part of this book and it was so difficult to choose which one to post. I choose that one up there because it talks about freedom in a hard and beautiful way. I love Scout and Dill and all their crazy ideas and i can relate somehow to everyone in Maycomb county. I highly recommend this book. If you can only read one book in your lifetime this would probably be it for me.

Fave quote: "It's not time to worry yet."

Ratings: 10/10

New hair cut

2011-01-25T17:57:00.000-08:00

I feel a very unusual sensation - if it is not indigestion,

I think it must be gratitude.

~Benjamin Disraeli

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Things I'm grateful for today January 25, 2011

1. I'm grateful for my new haircut. ^^ It's so short im still trying to get use to it.
2. I'm grateful for Janice who invited me to go to a parlor shop to have our hair done. It was definitely my first time in a long time to have my hair cut professionally because most of the time i do it on my own.
3.Im so grateful that i was able to watch Ghajini. Lovely characters they have in there especially the character of Asin Thottumkal as Kalpana. Gonna write a review/reflection for that movie soon.

Flirting in a funny way

2011-01-24T17:56:00.000-08:00

He is a wise man who does not grieve for the things which he has not,

but rejoices for those which he has.

~Epictetus

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Things I'm grateful for today January 24 2011

1. The conductor of lapasan jeep flirting with me! waaaaaaaaa. Hes got such crooked tooth it makes me laugh. Me and the driver were laughing. He was teasing he's conductor for being so upfront.He was so funny im not even pissed off(which usually i am when things like that happen)It was just plain funny. In the end i gave him my broadest smile.

2. As I've always said i cant allow myself to post only 1 thing here. So today I'm grateful for life and for my inner being. For the tress and the stars up above. For love and for being grateful for the ordinary things that comes my way. Thank you Lord. ^^

Karenika Replied!

2011-01-23T05:30:00.000-08:00

As each day comes to us refreshed and anew,

so does my gratitude renew itself daily.

The breaking of the sun over the horizon

is my grateful heart dawning upon a blessed world. ~

-Terri Guillemets

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 23 2011

Pleasant surprise!

1. I wake up and then i see that! Wow, Karenika just replied to me. I feel so happy and touched. I have been reading her blog. Following every post, arts and photography.I'm so familiar with David and Nathaniel already. I love her constancy it's very inspiring.

Look at that big smile...when you get to smile like that with roosters then you are a certified SABUNGERO!

2. Koy2 and Abong winning the cockfight! ahahha hala oi mga sabungero man ni ako mga manghod.I dont mind for as long as we get an ice cream or something everytime.

3. I'm so grateful for Monsi and his sermon. Ignorance of the bible is ignorance of Christ - quoting St. Jerome.

Today is a blessed day and it comes along with a lot of lessons to be learned.

Abba-cakes

2011-01-22T04:11:00.000-08:00

"God is up in the heavens above

and if you get to fly a little higher than the earth

youll get to meet him there!"

-Sheena Marie Senara

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Things I'm grateful for today Jan 22 2011

1. And so i named you my Abba-cakes! yay that is just so sweet of me don't you think? Abba-cakes your my sweetest patootie! ahahaha
2. I am so grateful that i decided to go to Dahilayan Adventure Park with my friends/classmates and coworkers to experience Asia's Longest Zipline. Wow, once i get there and started zip-lining i was screaming and shouting so loud! ahahah i was so happy. It feels like flying. So this is what it feels like to fly...ahhh heaven. And then you see your little shadow down there(it's so cute) ah pure happiness! There is God up there. Yes there is God in flying.

Spinning and spinning and smiling and smiling...

3. I played like a little kid today..And i tried all there is to play with in the park. I especially love those round table where you get to spin and hold yourself so tight so us not to be thrown away. I was smiling all the time we played it! Oh how lucky am i to be smiling like i have no care in the whole wide world. I should wear that smile everyday.
4. Father i am so thankful for your protection. We could have gotten in an accident but you choose to let your Guardian angel cover us with his beautiful wings. Thank you. Thank you. None other like you.
5. So grateful for the perfect weather you give us today. The weather is so fine. And the sun smiling down on us. What a great day to enjoy and have fun. Thank you so much!

Stick to it

2011-01-21T07:59:00.000-08:00

Things I'm Grateful for today.

1.I'm grateful for the moon rise. Oh how full and bright it is. Grateful that i get to see the dawn and feel the early morning breeze. Got to appreciate them all now. Graveyard shift is drawing closer.
2.I'm grateful for my afternoon sleep. Nothing beats sleeping especially when your whole body is so tired you don't even have the strength to open your eyelids.
3.Im so grateful for Janice and Chachuchang. Work wouldn't be that easy without them. Thank you so much Lord with all these people i work with.
4.Enjoyed facebook so much today. I think i'm a bit addicted. No, its just a daily routine. (hope so)
5.Mom brought home some Marshmallows and chocolates. yay!
6. Im so grateful that my mom cooked dinner for me. Aw, that doesnt happen always. ehehe I love my mom.
7. Slowly reading "Little Altars Everywhere" 1 Chapter a day is enough.
8. Purpose Driven Life day 2. Thank you so much Lord. Please give me the stick-to-itiveness attitude towards my goals. Thank you soo soo much Abba dear. :)IluvYou.

Practice

2011-01-20T07:25:00.000-08:00

Found this at http://kristinrobertson.com/ i have to repost. I think i want to do this also. :)

Every morning, for about five minutes, sit still and contemplate how God beholds you. God is like an unconditionally loving parent or grandparent, who extends to you abundant love, acceptance and forgiveness. There is nothing you need do or say or achieve to deserve this love; there is nothing you can do to lose it. This abiding love has surrounded you since the inception of your soul, when God created you.
Listen to what God has to say to you: “You are our blessed child, in whom we are well pleased. We love you whatever you do - we love you unconditionally - so you can cease your striving and rest in our embrace. We grieve for you when you choose to turn your face away from love, and rejoice when you return to us. Know that we are always here, ready to enfold you in the light of our love.”
This practice, done daily, will change your life, as it has mine. You will look in the mirror and see a different person staring back at you. You will come to love yourself completely, unabashedly and lavishly, as God loves you. What greater gift - the gift of self-love - can you give to yourself and to the world? For, if you cannot fully love yourself, you haven’t a prayer of fully loving others.

note: Done a little revision. Replaced the word Source to God.It doesn't matter either way. God is our source.